Emotionally Lost Simply Me

A friend i never had

A friend i never had
For i longing for you
Someone to talk to
Share a laugh and a cry
A friend i never had
I tried so many people
I tried but was never that lucky
A friend I dream to have
Someone to advice an enlighten me
A friend I never had

When I got you
All I ever wanted was you
Wanted you to be my only friend
Trust but How can I trust you
Were else I knew you are somebody 's friend too
Someone needs you more than I do

Am I your true friend
Or it's just my imagination
Am I leading you to light or
Am I your darkest wish
Do I share enough and give what expected
Do they stay between us only
Or your friends know too
I say you are my bestie
And you say somebody is your bestie
I want you to be mine only
A friend I never had

Scope of the day
My thoughts to the public
For I want them to be between
Me and you like I said
But I can't stop you and your
Mouth from spreading our friendship
But I worry for my life
For I gave every hint and weak path cos I thought you are my friend
A friend I never had

For our friendship become multiple
For you share it with them
I don't mind
For I mind now cos I don't share
I guess I am counting infinity
My friend , our friendship
Is on its end ,

I pour my heart for they see
I cry for they bowl for water
What happened to friends forever
For I feel no friendship
But my life on display
My friend I cry to you
But were do you cry for i never saw your tear
To your other friend
A friend you had before me

I was not alone , you were there

If ever I had something for them
Just to keep as close again
Friend of a friend
I am sorry I don't share
For I stop today
My legs to turn
My eyes to dry
My mouth to shut
Friend of a friend
For friendship stop here
What I gave already does not matter

I really care
I want you to be mine only
I know its  impossible
Friend of a friend
A friend I never had
I guess you never existed
A friend I never had