Sex, Drugs and Gay Love

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

I'm beginning to feel anxious and nervous a lot of the time. I feel as though i'm not good enough, and I think its because of Chris. He always flirts with me but then suddenly leaves me just as I think we're about to have sex. For god's sake, he wanked me on the dancefloor of a nightclub . . . he must have feelings for me.

I decide that I have to avoid Chris for awhile and give myself some space. It's not going to be easy because we live together but i'm just going to play it cool with him. Beside's I need to make more friends than just Chris. I spend all my time with him and if i'm not with him i'm always thinking about him.

I'm getting ready to go to class, I grab my bag and go to the kitchen to get a snack before I go. Chris is in the kitchen, naked as usual, making breakfast. "Hey sexy" he says while seductively rubbing against me. "Hey" I reply. I grab my snack and leave as quicky as possible. As I walk out the door, I catch Chris' reflection in the door's window, he's looking at me slightly confused. I feel bad, but I need to do this for myself.

I'm sitting in class, bored as usual but the whole time i'm thinking about Chris. It's gotten worse since I decided I was going to try and avoid him. Now I cant even concentrate on my college work. The class lecturer catches me day dreaming multiple times and I seem to be irratating him so I decide I need to leave and get some fresh air.

I decide to go grab a coffee and go outside to sit on the grass while I study. I've just lit a cigarette when Chris' friend Jen comes over. "Hey Niall!". She sits down beside me and gives me a hug. It feels nice when someone treats you like a friend, especially since i've been feeling lonely lately. She asks me for a drag of the cigarette so I just offer her one from my pack. She smiles and thanks me. "So i'm having a house party tonight, you should come? Chris will be there too" she tells me. I decide to lie to her and tell her i'm too far behind on my college work. "If you change your mind, you can come down anytime you want, gotta run!" she says as she gathers her books and jogs off.

I'd love to go to the house party but I cant face Chris and I need to spent some time away from him. I'm feeling tired, although it's only two o' clock so I decide to go home.

When I arrive home, theres no sign of Chris. I run upstairs to my room as quick as possible. The last person I want to see is Chris so I close my door, get into bed and try to forget about him.

[ I'm so sorry to everyone who read the story so far, I neglected to continue the story but I promise to update it more regularly now. Chapter 5 will be coming later this week, please continue to vote and comment suggestions . . . Thanks! ]