Sex, Drugs and Gay Love

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

I wake up in a daze, I'm not sure what time it is but I look out my window and see that the sun is beginning to set. I decide I can't stay in bed any longer so I get up to make myself a cup of coffee. I sneak down the stairs and try to listen to see if Chris is here. I can't hear anything so I continue down to the kitchen, I open the door and Chris is standing at the mirror checking himself out. He looks so hot, dressed in skinny black jeans, with brown chelsea boots and a red lumberjack shirt that is barely buttoned up so I can see his smooth almost hairless chest.

I turn around to walk back upstairs when Chris calls me "hey Niallers, are you coming to Jen's house party?" I shake my head and walk away back to my room. I'm just in my bedroom when I hear Chris following me upstairs. "You ok Niallers?" He asks me. I lie and tell him I'm just tired. "Well if you want to join us later you know where we are" he smiles and leaves.

I let out a sigh of relief, I do want to go but I need to stop thinking about Chris, although I'm thinking of him now more than ever.

I hear Chris leave the house, and I'm feeling depressed. All I want to do is be with him but I keep reminding myself of what he did in the nightclub with that guy and what a dick he can be. I grab a bottle of vodka and start drinking it straight. It's not long before I start feeling the effects. I'm not a good drinker as it is. I'm slowly losing control. I'm in Facebook on my phone flicking through pictures. There's so many pictures of me and Chris together and so many people are commenting what a great couple we would make. Why can't he see that? Does he think I'm ugly? Is it my personality? It can't be, we kissed before and we get on great together when he's not fucking guys in front of me.

I'm still drinking straight from the vodka bottle and I'm wasted, and now after looking though the pictures, I'm upset and pissed off. I get up and leave the house. "Fuck Chris" I say to myself. " I'm gonna tell him what an ass he is" I shout as I leave for the house party.

I walk up to the house and there's a huge group of people outside. I make my way inside searching for Chris. U find him in the sitting room, he's standing by the fireplace, surrounded by about five guys and girls. Jen is there too. I walk up it him, he smiles at me but I don't smile back. I reach back and slap him as hard as I can in his face. I can see he's stunned but he shakes it off and just smiles at me.

Chris grabs me by the back and my neck and he pulls me forward. He shoves his tongue into my mouth. I can't help but go along with it. He bites my lip and looks at me in the eyes. He's grinning now. He takes my hand and we go upstairs into a bedroom. He looks the doors behind him.

He pushes me on to the bed and starts to kiss me again. Out tongues tease each other. He pulls away for a moment "you were avoiding me today" he questions me. "I'm sorry" I admit, "but your messing with my head" I tell him. He ignores this and starts to pull my jumper off. I start to unbutton his shirt and he kicks his boots off.

Chris is on top of me now. I pull him closer. I can smell his cologne. He smells so good. Chris starts to kiss my neck, slowly moving down to my chest. He gently bits my nipple. This gets me hard. He's now kissing around my belly button while he takes my trousers off. My cock is pulsing against my boxers. Chris takes my boxers off and my cock pops out, slowly he starts to deep throat me. It feels amazing but I'm so excited I feel like I'm going to cum already so I tell Chris "it's my turn now". I get on top of him. I reach down into his trousers. His cock is still soft but when I start to stroke it, his cock gets hard. I take off his trousers and start to suck him. I try to deep throat him but his cock is too big. It's at least seven inches.

I've been sucking him for about ten minutes when I kiss him all the way up from his cock to his neck and I start to kiss him on the lips again. Our cocks are rubbing together now. I can feel some pre-cum on the top of my cock. Chris is fine, he's use to it obviously.

I then look at Chris into his eyes and I tell him "I want you to fuck me . . . I want you to be my first". He stares back at me for a moment, then pushes me away. My heart sinks, he puts on his jeans and leaves. Not even fully dressed yet. Tears roll down my cheeks. I knew I shouldn't have let him do this to me.