"Im dying" (part 1)

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by melbournegal
by melbournegal
                                    
                                              Your point of view

                          " Shawn stop" I chuckle as he is on top of my lying down body tickling me.
                          " not unless you say Shawn's the best" he grins 
                          " never I can't say something that's not true" I try to squirm away but his arms are on either side of me.
                          "Say it or I'll tickle harder!!" He smirked evilly enough to scare me to surrender.
                          " fine Shawn's the best" I cried out laughing .
                          " naw your so cute you didn't have to say that" he smirked tickling me even more.
                          "Shawn!" I giggled breathless
                          " y/n I have to tell you something" he smiled and sat me on his lap.
                          Truth is I had something to tell him too.
                          " well we've been dating for a while and I can't help but have this strong feeling towards you and at first I didn't understand the feeling I didn't know what it was but when I realised what it was I knew i felt that way towards you" he rambled 
                          " I - I think I love you, actually I don't think I know. I know Im in love with you y/n" he smiled 
                          My heart stopped, although I saw it coming I had to break his heart now before he fell further leaving us both unable to be loved again.
                          " Shawn I can't love you I'm sorry" I frowned.
                          " that's okay you don't have to love me yet?" He whispered confused 
                          " no Shawn I love you I truely do but I can't do it anymore" I cried 
                          " why y/n?, what's wrong?" He yelled curiously wondering why I'm beginning to get all flustered 
                          " I -I'm I -" I stuttered 
                          " tell me now" he spoke clearly coming closer to my now shaking body 
                          " I'm- I'm dying Shawn"
                          " no, your joking" He let one tear slipped before he turned around and slammed his fist into the wall behind him.
                          " I wish I was" I sobbed
                          " no that's not fair, I won't let you, No no no, I won't let you go" he cried holding me in his arms 
                          " I don't have a choice Shawn" I whimpered.
                          he mumbled something barely audible. 
                          "what?" I questioned
                          "How long till you- you know?" 
                          "2 weeks" I whispered he quickly let go of me and gave me a blank expression.
                          " YOU HAVE TWO WEEKS?" He screamed making me flinch and breaking my heart sitting here watching the tears run like rivers down both of our faces.
                          "I'm sorry I can't do this right now" He sobbed grabbing his stuff and walking out of the house.
                          Leaving me physically and mentally.
                          Alone.
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                          A/n: CAN I JUST SCREAM FOR A BIT!!!! ❤️
                          THIS BOOK REACHED 10 FxCKING THOUSAND AND OML I NEVER WOULD HAVE THOUGHT 6 MONTHS AGO WHEN I STARTED THIS BOOK THIS WOULD HAPPEN 🤯
                          I JUST WANT TO THANK EVERYONE WHO READS THIS AND VOTES AND COMMENTS YOU GUYS ARE MY 🌍 ❤️
                          this will have a few more parts and will be a longer story yes it will be sad so braise yourself for heartbreak❤️
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