Lucky or Unlucky?

Shopping, spoilt little boy, and mood swings

After a while all three of us arrived at the supermarket that was about 15 minutes away from our house before we would drop Nate off at his grandmother's house. After dropping Nate off we would be hosting a little get together with our friends, dinner and drinks. I would make dinner and cook for our friends. I used to bake for fun, or if I was angry, hurt, upset, and or scared. But once Nate was born I had a lot of free time on my hands. Well as I could with having to look after a new born. Baths, feeds, diaper changes, changing clothes and everything  else that came with a new born.

But I loved every second of being close with my son. I baked and cooked organic food for him once I started to weaning him off milk and on to solid foods. Then after a while once Nate started becoming independent and doing everything for himself I was bored out my mind. Nick was away days on end, I didn't have anything else to do after cleaning up around after Nate, laundry, and the grocery shopping. Once Nate would start kindergarten I would go stir crazy if I didn't go back to work. This was the main reason I would talk to Nick about going back to work.

'Daddy can I have this too?' asked Nate with his bottom lip down looking up at his father through his big brown eyes. Nick looked at me with a look that reminded me of a deer caught in the head lights then back at Nate with a warm smile.

'Yeah sure, buddy!' said Nick. He ruffled Nate's hair grinning as he put the jigsaw puzzle in the shopping cart.

Everything Nate wanted, Nate got. Nate was spoilt by the boys that worked with Nick and my unofficially adopted brothers. The boys would give Nate all their new merchandise as well as buying him expensive gifts when ever they saw him. Nick would also shower him with expensive gifts to make up for not being around as much. So now everything and anything was wanted by Nate. Everything he set his eyes on he would test his luck to see if Nick would let him get it. When Nate went grocery shopping with me, I would let him get only two things so he was testing his luck with Nick. Nick would let him get anything he when he looked up at him with his big brown eyes that rivalled a hurt puppy.

Right now Nate had a new football, ten reading books, a new set of crayons, three action toys, two sets of jigsaws, a set of paints, four new colouring books, and five toy cars. Nate was like me in that sense he would always read whenever he had a chance. At first it was just the both of us reading. When Nick was gone I would read to Nate whiles he sat in my lap. Then when Nick was here the both of us would read to him before tucking him in to bed. But now Nate could read himself, he would read by himself. No matter what was going on during the day I would make sure that I had an hour set away. During this hour I would make sure Nate would learn his spelling, maths, and other studies. Even afterwards Nate would sit with me whiles he read his book and I would read my own helping him with words he didn't understand or say.

'Can I get cookies?' asked Nate picking up a box whiles Nick picked up candy, chips, chocolate, among other things for the dinner party.

'Yeah' said Nick

'No!' I said at the same time firmly.

'Come on, it's just cookies, Taylor' said Nick putting his stuff in the cart.

'Nate, put it back! Nick, we already have cookies, homemade. Beside he has a lot of stuff he doesn't need anything else' I told Nick. I saw Nick clench his jaw and Nate's eyes fill up with tears. I felt my heart strings tung and nearly gave in but I remember I was trying to discipline him. 'Come on, we have to go get cereal, you can pick out what you want' I told Nate holding his hand whiles Nick pushed the cart.