among stars

fourteen

Two months after

"Jun, the principal wants to meet you, in the office." The secretary told me and I nodded. I knew he would find out.

"Jun." He sighed.
" I'm sorry. After the meeting, we've decided that you're allowed to skip school anytime or even quit school for the.. you know." He said, trying not to say the word.

"Ah. Thankyou Mr. Jeon. I hope this will stay as a secret between both of us." I smiled.

"Sure. Just, uh- goodluck." He replied with a sad face as we shake our hands.
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It's been a long time that I didn't go to school. Hm I missed everyone especially Kyle and Elise. Luckily, Kyle do visit me sometimes.

But since my condition has gotten worse, I decided to pay a visit to school. I met my teachers and classmates. They know actually nothing about that but yeah I just told them that I moved out.

I met Wonwoo at the cafe and decided to talk to him.

"Wonwoo. Can we talk?" I bravely said to him.  "Sure. But not now. Maybe, at the rooftop, after school." I nodded
"But about what?" He asks, confused.

"About -" I was about to explain before bell rang.

You guys might be asking why am I hurting myself for this. There suppose to be a reason right?

Why huh?

Babe. I'm doing this for your sake. I can help but to feel bad whenever you talked to Wonwoo even when we're dating.

Elise, I can't stand seeing your swollen eyes when you cried and you lied to me. You said it was nothing when I can see the reason why. How you fake your laugh whenever I said that he missed you. When you try to change the topic when I started complaining about how sad he was recently. How your tears starts brimming when I send you some pictures of him crying alone infront of your house. How satisfied you look when I said Wonwoo broke up with Janra because he finally realized that she is a golddigger. When your eyes started to glitter up with tears when I told you about how he was about to send you a text that is he'd never press the button 'send'. When I made a joke but you didn't laugh not because it wasn't funny, but you'd never pay attention since you were busy thinking bout Wonwoo.

And how stupid and effortless I am as a best friend of yours, after letting you go and knowing; in the end it worth nothing. How can I not be jealous?

And when I finally gave up on you and giving Wonwoo a chance on having you? But, It didn't work.

This is not yet the end.

I am not letting you go for no reason.

Babe, I will make this work. What's the point of letting you go when it worth nothing in the end? I wanted to tell you so bad that I missed you and hell those cheesy stuffs and I wish I could. But I swear to myself I will even risk and sacrifice my blood, sweat, tears on this (jk thats too much). For you. But one thing you don't know about me.

I got-

"Jun! Are you listening!? I bet you're not," Kyle rolled his eyes. Kyle got the permission to skip classes for me. Tch. Taking advantages on me bish.
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"Jun! What do you want to talk about?"

It's Wonwoo. I take a deep breath.

"Elise. You. Me." I emphasized each words.

He looked at me, confused.