Kira's POV
It's scary.
I never imagine to make it out alive . I disappointed so many people, why did I come back? Maybe if I stayed hidden, closed in on my own little world, people would forget all about me. Maybe if I was gone I could've saved Levi the trouble. Save everyone the trouble from having high hopes for me. To protect them.
If I couldn't protect Farlan and Isabel, how the fuck am I gonna protect humanity?
I'm no soldier. I'm a coward.
"Oí shit head"
"Gimme a sec will you?"
I never knew that one day could be so torn and then the next day, back to "normal". I've missed out on so much, new gear, new cadets, but same problems.
Whatever the problem, there's always something to lose and something to gain.
I washed my face, rubbing off all my thoughts that just couldn't go away. Yesterday is not today. Sighhh
"Took you long enough"
"I took like 2 minutes, you exaggerate too much"
"Shut it, let's get you some breakfast"
Levi looked so troubled and confused as he walked out the door. And for a moment, I never felt so guilty.
What has he been through while I wasn't there?? Did he eat his meals everyday? Did he get enough rest? Did he tell himself that all this was soon going to be over?? I've left him alone for so long, that his thoughts seem to consume him.
I wasn't there to comfort him at night as he cried himself to sleep. I wasn't there to look at him in the mornings and tell him it's okay. I wasn't there when he needed me.
I'm sorry.
IM ALIVEEE Y'ALLLLL :))
I'm sorry I haven't been updating lately and I promise I'll do my best to get new chapters done. I wanted to let you guys know that in my profile it says I'm 15 but recently on December 13th , I've turned 17 :') that's right :) I skipped being 16.
Anywayyyy, I haven't updated in a long ass time and I'm sorry if this chapter doesn't make sense, but let me know what you guys think. I need to re-read my chapters again and try to get back on track.
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Listen to this song guys :(
R.I.P lil peep
He truly touched my heart strings and taught me a lot of things.
I'll do my best guys <3
