"Is anything in this world real?"
A woman that was depersonalization / derealization disorder stuck between the real world and her own hell and a girl; stuck between her many personalities.
(especially of a liquid) only slightly warm; lukewarm.
unprecedented pov
*d r e a m s*
She's sleeping with me so peacefully and in my arms, "what are you thinking off?" she asks, whispering in my ear. Her hot breath riled against the shell of my ear.
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I smile light as ever and sigh. "I'm thinking that you love me and everything alright," I tell her. That she loves me no matter what goes on inside of me and my head, no matter who she gets to see through me that she'll always love me and can stick with the different sides of me. The SPLIT in my head controlled me but couldn't control my feelings for her.
My multiple personality disorder might create a wedge in us someday, she may not be able to handle them at a point. "I love you and I love whoever you are at any time, this is still your body and it's the body I adore," she kisses the back of my neck, the nape. My perfect and caring Zee, how could I be so lucky? I am a madwoman yet every day she holds me, when I come home I guess whether she's left but when I walk past the door she's still there in her chair waiting for me with warm eyes and open arms.
"Don't leave me," I cry.
She holds me tighter and tighter until I can feel my lungs. "never."
Her body against me is so warm in the harsh gelid weather. Her warm hands reach to touch my breasts groping them gently, "I love your body," her hands led down to my-- God I don't even know what to call the thing.
"Don't, my body is atrocious!" I growled.
* d r e a m o v e r *
I'd woke up to the sound of my own voice and to my surprise, I hadn't woke up Zee. I woke up with a hard-on as well, I should be ashamed of myself. Dreaming about Zee, I haven't even let her meet my parents yet.
Quickly I got up from her office chair and took myself into the bakery grabbing a cheese danish warming it up in the over and making a green tea for her. I come back after her Danish is warm enough and her tea is done. I add a few teaspoons of real raw honey.
I come back to her office, where she was wide-eyed and disoriented. But awoke. "well good morning beautiful."
Zee chuckled. "well um thank you, random stranger, who saved my cat last night and oh . . . You brought me breakfast from my own bakery, thank you."
It was about time I had introduced myself to her now. I knew her but she doesn't know me. That will all change soon. "my name is Selena, I um saved Darth from embarrassing herself in a real catfight, little lady's gotta have pride right?"
I made her laugh and it was so beautiful to hear her. "well thank you for proceeding Darth Vader's rep and thank you so very much even more for saving her and laying me down after my . . . Whatever that was, anyway I'm Zee."
