I Wish I May, I Wish I Might, I Wish I Could Go Back In Time

Silena

Everything around me was too loud. There was a lot of yelling. And the swords clashing. And waves crashing. I could feel the floor under me tilting from side to side.

I opened my eyes, only to close them right away. You know how when you wake up in the morning, but you can’t actually open your eyes because it’s too bright? It was like that.

But, when I finally managed to keep my eyes open, I realized it wasn’t the morning. And I wasn’t in my bedroom, or my cabin at camp. There were no posters of celebrities surrounding me. I didn’t know where I was. But at the same time, I did.

I sat up slowly and looked around. Before I actually got to take in my surroundings however, someone barged in. I looked at the person, and was surprised by what I saw.

“Oh good, you’re awake,” she said.

"What's going on? Where am I?"

"Can you not guess? Well, if you must know, I am recruiting people to join my army."

"Your army? Why would you need an army?"

"I think that's quite obvious. I'm trying to raise Kronos; I am trying to avenge my friends' deaths."

"But... but wasn't Kronos already risen by Luke? And... and I died in that war... How am I alive?"

I was genuinely confused. I was sitting with Beckendorf in the Underworld, and then all of a sudden I was here. How did- Oh my gods.

The Wish.

The Wish brought me back in time to relive this moment, and make a new decision. I could save innocent lives. I could save Beckendorf's life. But one thing still didn't make sense. Why was Thalia rising Kronos instead of Luke?

Who else messed with the past?

Thalia's eyes narrowed, "What are you talking about? Luke was turned into a tree when we came to camp."

"Um... I don't know, maybe I just had a weird dream?" I tried.

Thalia nodded, "I guess that's possible..." But she didn't look like she actually thought that; she looked suspicious. She was scaring a little. This was not the same Thalia I had gone to camp with; there was no way she was the same person.

"So, uh, yeah, where are we?" I asked trying to change the subject.

"A boat. The Princess Andromeda." I paled. "What is wrong with you? You're acting really weird. Are you okay?"

"I- I'm fine. So, uh, back to the Kronos thing. What about your friends, Thalia? Do you really want to fight against them?"

"If they were smart, they would join me."

"Then... what about the gods? What about your father?"

She snorted, "As if my father actually cared about me. I wasn't supposed to be born. He hates me because of that and he acts like it's my fault. I'm not the one who broke an oath. And he ever loved me. He didn't even care enough to try to get my brother back..."

"Your brother?"

Thalia shook her head, "Never mind. So what's your answer? Will you join me?"

"I..."

"If you don't join me, you will seriously regret it." She took a step toward me as she said this, and I scrambled back a little.

"Are you threatening me?"

"I'm just... telling you your options."

So she was threatening me. I stood up, and brushed the dirt off my pants trying to by myself some time.

"Look Thalia... I don't..." I didn't know what to say. How could say yes again? But at the same time, how could I say no?

"Join us Silena," Thalia said. She grabbed my arm and pulled a little. I could feel her nails digging into my skin, and I could see the anger in her eyes. "Join us, and get your revenge on the gods. Join us, and win the war."

Beckendorf... My friends... Camp Half-Blood...

"No." I said.

"Excuse me? Did you just say no to me, so you can fight for the gods?" She spit the word gods out like it was something bile in her mouth.

"I'm not fighting for you," I repeated, yanking my arm out of her grasp. "I'm not making the same mistake twice."

Before she could ask me what I meant, I turned and ran. I ran away from Thalia, away from the option of being a spy. I wouldn't say yes again. I got the chance to change my choice, and I would.

I would never betray my friends ever again.