Transition

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But....it couldn't last.....

I began to have more and more disphoric days, falling into what many recognize as depression. I stopped eating as often, therefore, losing weight. I even lost sleep because of it.
After some time of this, I decided I needed an escape. I began self-harm.

I self-harmed in the form of cutting, carving, and anorexia. These things quickly became part of my every day life, in order to cope with myself. I became increadably talented at hiding things, and lying, so nobody would tell something was wrong. I even avoided the answer "I'm fine" because these days, people know those two words as a cry for help. Instead, I often used the phrases, "Why wouldn't I be ok?" And "Yeah, I'm cool"

Even though these coping methods seemed to work for some time, (around a few months) my body and mind became used to it, so it wad no longer working the way it would. Because of this, I stopped cutting and carving, though I continued not eating, i began something that was....much...worse.

       -Conner