cold//min yoongi AU

chapter 6

c e l

time passes by so quickly and its already lunch. i headed to our school cafeteria and waited for yoongi at our usual table, but he never showed up. i ended up not eating lunch, so i just stayed in our music room and tried out the newly bought guitar by our school.

i knew at the first strum that i needed to sing my heart out. i've been writing this song since we got together and coincidentally, this is the first time i'll sing it.

did you ever feel that way
then why'd you ever make me stay
by your side
your side

something feels a bit wrong here
cant point it out
but you pulled me near
by your side
your side

why? what is it supposed to be
why do i feel that its not real
when i look into your eyes
your eyes~

tell me about those hidden glances
your intentions and uncertainties
your awkward smiles and cliche romances
your hesitations and worries

why do i feel its unrealistic
like its all scripted and planned out to be perfect~

i stopped and sighed, the lyrics halted there. but i wanted to sing more, there's still this heavy feeling on my chest that i wanted to let out.

but now its all changed
the way i looked at you its not the same
i fell for you, but i feel like im not supposed to
why do i feel like this?

do you love me back
i feel like i fell into a trap
im scared, this anxiety
thinking you will not fall for me-

"celestine." i hear yoongi's voice behind me, making me drop the guitar.

"oh, what the heck, suga!" my eyes quickly scanned the guitar in case there were some damages.

"suga?" he walked closer to me, then eventually sat down beside me, "you never call me that." he stated.

"well you stopped calling me by my real name since we got together and now you're suddenly calling me that after i confessed my true feelings for you. how do you think i feel right now, yoongi?" i let out in one breath.

"that song, you wrote it?" he switched topics. i can literally feel my heart aching so badly right now.

"what do you think?" i looked away from him, my head drooped low.

"so you wrote it?" he asked again, i nodded as i rolled my eyes, "is it about us? about me?" i notice him take a deep breath, not quite anticipating my answer.

"yes." i bit my lip as i feel a tear roll down on my right cheek. i kept my head low since i didn't want him to see me cry.

he doesn't feel the same way, fuck, i'm so stupid.

"that's what you really feel about our relationship?" his voice cracked out as he caressed my cheek, wiping my tears.

"i wouldn't have written that if i didn't feel that way." i looked up at him, now eye level with him.

we just stared at each other as his hands cupped my face.

"i'm sorry, my jagiya." he said before he gently kissed my lips.

i kissed him back and softly sighed against his lips, i didn't know what to feel. relieved? worried? why was he being like this?

"meet me at the park after school." he said as he slowly detached our lips, smiling at me.