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one.

↠ carmen ↞

carmen fell back onto her bed and brought her hands up to her hair. she ran them through her hair excessively, making it a frizzling mess. staring up at the ceiling littered with plastic glow-in-the-dark stars, she pondered what she did wrong.

what did i say that could've possibly triggered daniel to lash out like that.

she thought she didn't feel the connection anymore, but nobody has ever made her heart feel this way. this gut-wrenching, heart-ripping way that makes her cry until there's nothing left. she clutched her throat as she made this strangled cry. she started rubbing the back of her neck to her collarbone with her other hand.

love wasn't supposed to hurt like this. it was supposed to be this grand and beautiful paradise but instead all she received was this terrible pain. while they both knew their relationship was like a snowball rolling down a mountain, neither of them wanted to confront the inevitable. it was perfect for the time being and nobody could say otherwise. and even though carmen didn't love daniel to her fullest extent, he still took a piece of her heart when he walked out that door.

nothing lasts forever, everybody knows that. sometimes, there are things in life that aren't meant to stay. sometimes, change may not be what i want. but sometimes, change is exactly what i need. and sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing i think i'll ever have to do; but sometimes, saying hello again is the thing that'll break me down and make me more vulnerable and fragile than i ever thought possible. change is too much to bear most of the time.

but i feel as though that change is the only thing that pushed daniel to end our relationship with each other and help us get on with our lives.

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