The last couple months of the year were the busiest we have ever had. What with all the shows in America, the awards shows, and Jin and Taehyung's birthdays, every one was exhausted, especially the boys. I gave Yoongi as much encouragement as I could, and it seemed to help his mood, if only a little bit.
So here we are, only a few days until Christmas, and Yoongi is in his studio, doing whatever he does in there. I decided a while ago that I would give him privacy and not bother him while he was in there. I think he appreciated it.
But it was 2:00 AM, and I was exhausted. I can't imagine how tired he felt.
So I knocked on his studio door, and he looked towards the door. He gestured for me to come inside, and I quietly stepped in.
He stood up from his chair and stretched. He did look exhausted.
"Yoongi, you should go sleep. Whatever you're doing can wait until tomorrow. It's not good for you to go without sleep."
He started to say something, but as soon as he opened his mouth, a big yawn came out. I laugh, and Yoongi glares playfully at me, which makes me laugh even more.
Yoongi walks towards me, then suddenly starts to tickle me. "Since you like to laugh so much, why don't I help you out with it?" He says, grinning.
"N-no, Stop Yoongi! St- oh my gosh, stop it!" Yoongi was laughing now, and it brightened his face a little.
He stopped tickling me, and suddenly kissed me.
Ahh, his lips. They never failed to amaze me. He pulled me closer to him, and deepened the kiss. I wrapped my arms loosely around his neck.
After a few more moments of this precious kiss, Yoongi pulls away, but only very slightly. Our noses were pretty much still touching, and he pressed his forehead against mine.
"I love you." He whispers to me.
"I love you too." I whisper back.
"I'll go to sleep soon, I promise. I just need to finish writing this line, okay?"
"You promise?"
"I promise."
We say goodbye and I walk out towards the lobby. Before I could step outside into the cold though, I heard Hana call my name. I turned around and saw her hurrying towards me, holding a present in her hands.
"Hi Hana. I really do need to get home, but is there something you need?"
Hana held out the present she was holding. "This is for you, an early present I suppose. Don't wait till Christmas to open it though. Ooooh, open it when you get home, okay?" She had a mischievous look in her eyes, and I blinked a couple of times.
"Okay, I'll open it when I get home. See you tomorrow!" I hold on tightly to the present and walk out to my car.
When I get home, my dad was already asleep. I went to my room and changed into my pajamas. I sat on my bed, looking at the present Hana had given me.
"Well, I guess I should open it."
I tear off the wrapping paper and see that it is a box from....
Victoria's Secret?
My face goes slightly red. I'm sure it's just a joke, and that there is something totally normal in there. I slowly open the box, and am met by a card.
I take the card and open it.
Annabelle~
I got this for you, and maybe for Yoongi too. I know you guys love each other so much, and I thought that this could show him that your love is overflowing. Please wear it, it was expensive, just saying. I hope you (and Yoongi) both like it!
~Hana
Oh my goodness. I hesitated as I looked at the tissue paper that was covering the clothing. I was pretty sure I knew what it was now.
I let out a deep breath and opened the tissue paper. I gasped at what I saw.
It was lingerie. Of course it was lingerie. It was red and black and lacy, and to be honest, it was cute. It wasn't too revealing, but it did reveal some places that Yoongi would probably love to see. I took it out of the box and held it up.
Wow. It was more revealing that I see all of it. I can't wear this, was Hana serious about this?
I knew my eyes were wide and my face was red. I put the lingerie down.
Should I try it on? Do girls do that, try on their lingerie?
I decided I would. Maybe I wouldn't look as terrible as I think I would.
I went into my bathroom, and put it on.
I stare at myself.
Holy moly.
I admit, I looked kind of okay in it. I didn't look terrible.
I think Yoongi might like it.
My face goes even redder as I think about Yoongi seeing me in this. I imagined what he might look at me like. I know he wouldn't look at me disgusted... Yoongi would never do that. The worst he could do was tell me to take it off.
I thought about this lingerie situation for a while.
I think... I'll maybe give it a try.
A couple of months ago, I would never have tried this with Yoongi. But he had given me so much confidence, along with my friends and Mrs. Park, that I felt that maybe, just maybe, I could pull it off.
*****
When I get to work the next day, Hana comes up to me.
"Did you open it? Did you like it?" She asked excitedly.
"I-"
"Annabelle, please come over here for a second." Mrs. Park calls to me.
"Yes ma'am!" I say, quickly hurrying away so that I wouldn't have to answer Hana's question.
"Yes Mrs. Park?" I say, bowing politely.
"Oh nothing, I just saw that you were in a situation. I figured I could fake a request. You're welcome."
I laugh, and thank her.
As the day goes on, I wonder about if I should tell Yoongi about the lingerie.
But every thought left my head when I heard about Jonghyun.
The whole company of Big Hit gathered in the biggest room in the building. We didn't need to know why, we had all heard the news: Jonghyun from Shinee had committed suicide.
Everyone was silent. Most of us were crying. I looked around for Yoongi. When I found him, I hurried towards him, gently taking his hand in mine. He looked up at me and I could see a few tears. I hugged him, and he hugged me back. I could tell he was hurting. "I'm here Yoongi...".
"I have asked us all to gather here today because of the death of a fellow hardworking Kpop star. Jonghyun of Shinee has passed away, and I would like us all to mourn him and pray for him for a few minutes." Mr. Kim said solemnly.
So we all stayed silent and prayed. This was when I heard the most sniffles and silent sobs I've ever heard in my life. This is also when I broke down.
Yoongi hugged me tightly again, and I silently cried into his shoulder.
After a while, Mr. Kim said a prayer for Jonghyun, and told us that the schedule for the rest of the week had been cancelled.
I think we were all thankful of this.
I made sure to give all the boys a hug before I left to go home.
Yoongi walked me out to my car, no emotion on his face. He was hurting.
"Good night, Annabelle. I'll talk to you soon, okay? I love you." He kisses my lips gently, hugs me, and then walks back inside.
When I get home, I collapse on my bed, crying. And soon after that, I fall asleep.
