h o n e s t l y

f a k e

i often feel
like my body doesn't belong to me
like it doesn't matter
i feel as if
i'm being controlled
i want to escape from my body
but i can't
so i continue with my same repetitive routine
my mouth bends into a smile when someone makes a joke
but my eyes stay cold and dead
i act as if i care
when really
i feel like i'm being so
fake