Played (ON HOLD)

F I V E

Veronica's POV

I don't know what to think about. I don't know how to feel. I'm confused and totally shocked knowing that Marcus was waiting for me back home. My half of me was excited and the other was angry. Excited because, after a year I would finally see again the only man that I ever loved. And angry because the only man that I love was the one who broke my heart repeatedly and intentionally. I should not feel the first feeling. I should feel anger. Mad. I should be strong to overcome the excitement I feel. It would be totally crazy of me wanting him back to my life. But I can't deny the fact that everyday that passed, I always prayed and hoped that he'll come back and asked for my forgiveness and promised that he will never hurt me again. But it was crazy! Absolutely mistake! I'm not naïve anymore! I'm strong enough! I'm strong! I have trashed so many guys. They cry because of me! And this all because of Marcus! He's the one who killed my baby! He's the one who ruined my life!

I let out my tears. I screamed. I let go the anger to win.

I deeply inhaled. I wiped the dry tears on my cheeks. I'm strong. You're strong Veronica. You can face him. You can do it. Don't let anyone else hurt you.

I walk out the car and cautiously headed inside the house. I opened the door. I found Marcus sitting on the couch. His elbows on his knees and hands on his face. Mom and James are on the kitchen door just sternly watching Marcus.

He finally notice me when I shut the door closed. He quickly look and stand up. His face was with smile. The past suddenly crossed my mind.

...I don't loved you. I just used you for my needs...

The anger I feel rises. I clenched my jaw. My hands behind me start to shake. I want to slap him. To hurt him. To said harsh words to him. I want him to feel the pain.

But I stay calmed.

"Hey.." He said and extended his arms to hug me but I step backwards.

"Don't you dare touch me!" I said in flat tone. "What the fvck are you doing here?! After what you did! You still have the guts to come here?!" I finally shouted. His smile turned to frown. He look away from my gaze.

I turned to mom. Her face was full of sympathy. And James have a stern look. "Can you please leave us alone for a minute?" I ask them in a small voice. They just nod and walk upstairs. When I heared the bedroom door upstairs shut I continued.

"Answer me!" I shouted again. Now Marcus looked at me. Now with a smirk on his face. What the heck?

"The rumors are true." He started. And chuckled slightly. I finally realised that this is what his true color without anyone watching him. The old him. "You have truly changed. You have grown."

What did he mean? Yeah I know that I have changed myself.

For the better.

"What are you talking about?" I walked towards him.

"That you changed. After what happened back then. You are now fuckin' hot Veronica!" He hold my shoulders both side. "You look beautiful." He smirked. Licking his bottom lip.

I swatted his hands off my shoulder. "Just tell me what you want!" I said to his face. Not even blinking. I'm strong.

"I want you Veronica. I want you back to me." His voice was full of sincerity. Maybe? Maybe he was just acting like what he did before.

The words hit me off guard. I didn't expected him to say that. I was shocked. I don't know what to say.

No, no, no. Veronica you don't have to trust him. He played you before and he can do it again! You are not naïve anymore. You are now a woman. A strong one.

"I want you to come with me. I'm going back home to Australia. We can live there and start a new one." He continued. His eyes met my gaze. I can't see any emotions on his eyes. I can't read him like before. He was good at denying and hiding his feelings. Or maybe I'm just a fool.

"No! No! No!" I felt a lump rises my chest ready to burst any moment. "Just leave!" I pointed my hand outside.

He clenched his jaw. Staring at me. After a moment he turned to walk towards the door. He's leaving.

"And don't you dare to come back here." I stated in a sharp tone.

"I'll come back. If you changed you mind. I know you want it. I can see through your eyes that you still love me. Bye Veronica." Marcus said without looking back. He walks away. Leaving me speechless.

No. I don't love him anymore. It can't be. I'm over him. I'm sure of that. I'm sure...

I can feel my tears flows down my face. My heart is pounding hard inside my chest. I can hear the pulse on my neck. I can't move.

I jumped when I felt hands on my shoulder. I quickly turned to see who it was.

"It's only me." His red lips smiles. "Come here." He don't waited for my answer and pulled me closer to him. I didn't refused his hug. His hands went around my back as I hugged him tightly. His chin above my head. He gently rubbed my back.

I cry to his chest. He wouldn't mind his shirt getting soaked with my tears. He was used to it. Michael was already used to it.

He was always there for me. He was always there as my brother. Who comforts me everytime I have a nightmare. He always have a way to make me happy and comfortable. He make me feel safe.

"Do you want to sleep in my room tonight?" He suddenly ask when he notice that I finally stayed calm. "I don't want my little sister to sleep alone tonight. Let alone that she was just visited a while ago by the monster on her dreams." I felt his lips kissed my hair. He lift me up and dragged me into his bedroom.

I chuckled slightly as he throw me into his bed.

"That's my girl!" He laughs and sit on the edge of the bed. I hugged my knees. I smiled to my angel. "Do you want to talk about it?" His face was now serious.

"Um, I don't know." I looked away. "I'm sorry. Can we just sleep? I'm exhausted." I half smiled.

His hands ran on his face. And fix his hair. Making it more spikey. "Okay. Just go to sleep. We'll talk about it tomorrow."

"You're not joining me?" I pouted. I thought that he would sing for me to sleep.

"I'm too high to sleep Veronica." He rolled his eyes. "Just go to sleep. Don't worry my dear sister, I'll watch over you so that the monster wouldn't come back." He said in a sweetest tone.

I  smiled. "Thank you." I hugged him.

"For everything."

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Very short update I know. Sorry! It's because of the too much drama yesterday.

First, the concert ticket selling for ON THE ROAD AGAIN TOUR was less than a week to go and I don't have any money yet. (I'm so poor)

Second, the drama between Directioners and 5sosfam. I'm totally torn in two.

Third, the performance of 5sos on BBMAs. And also Kendall fvcked up introducing the boys.

Fourth, the DONTSTOPMUSICVIDEO. And I'm not yet over with that. The boys were cute and so adorable.

Fifth, the HAYLEY WILLIAMS issue. I know you guys already know that. I'm so disappointed with her. Dammit. #knowyourbandshirt lol

Lastly, the old guys hating Luke just because of his fvcking SHIRT. SO PATHETIC.

There. Hope you guys understand. The next update will be a long one. I promise. I love you babies! Mwa! :*

gracy xx