*Soonyoung pov*
I stumbled home. My head racing. What am I going to tell jihoon? I thought.
Walking up the stairs to our tiny shared apartment. Getting the key out of my pocket and putting it in the key hole.
I regretted my discussions. I wished last night didn't happen. I don't even remember it. it's all just a blur. I opened the door to see a smaller male with black hair.
I smiled fondly at him before something hit me, guilt
I sneak over to him before waking him up "jihoonie" I cooed at the smaller.
I suddenly stopped and I wanted to walk out. I couldn't do this. I didn't want to face this. I haven't come home in days after the small fight we had making my lover worried.
I felt tears gliding down my face. And I tried to wipe them away fast enough but they kept on coming.
I ran to the bathroom to try and contain myself before Jihoon wakes up. I sat on the floor sobbing for what seemed like forever. I finally calmed down. I stood up and froze.
w-what is this.. bruises?. I lifted up my shirt to see hickeys traveling up my chest to my neck. I felt tears build up again. I don't even know how they got there.
Then I heard little footsteps "Soonie? Are you okay?"
I stood there for a long time before answering. The air was getting heavy. "Y-yeah" I finally choked out.
"Im coming in" and before I could register the door was open. I pushed my shirt down and I turned to see a smiling jihoon. But hes smile faded as quickly as it came.
I didn't say anything we just stared in eachother eyes. My eyes soo casted down my bangs covering my eyes. Them still watering. "Soonie" he says. But I can't even look at him "Soonyoung" he says a little louder and there is a hand on my chin forcing my head up. Tears escaping. "What's wrong soonie?" Can he not see? Is he ignoring it?
I Looked in the mirror again to see all the hickey's have disappeared. And I gasp "jihoon" I say whipping my head back to look at him.
"I don't....I don't understand" he looks me in concern "what's wrong soon"
I can't tell him that I think I cheated on him. "It's nothing" I gave him a hug and kisses the top of his head "Soonyoung this isn't every sanitary"
I smiled.
I woke up later that night to a noise in the apartment. I slowly got up trying not to wake jihoon and i walk downstairs.
To see no one.
I feel a liquid falling down from somewhere on my face and I ran to the bathroom. To see my nose bleeding I quickly got a tissue to make it stop and sat on the edge of the bathtub. I heard a bang and I look in the the mirror again. Seeing a shadow fly across the mirror. They kinda looked like jihoon and seungcheol. I start to shake. Did jihoon cheat on me? I start to hear voices calling my name "Soonyoungie"
I am shaking out the the trace to see my jihoon look at me worried. "Soonyoung?" he said before I threw myself at him crying
"Im scared Ji"
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Weeks later nothing has really happend but I keep hearing and seeing things.
I don't tell jihoon because he thinks I should go to the doctor but i don't want to. I'm scared there is something actually wrong with me.
"I'm going to work babe. I'll see you when I get home love you" jihoon yelled before giving me a quick kiss out the door. But no hug
Why no hug?
I was practicing dancing the the room when I tripped and hit my head on the table
I woke up in a bright room. the sound of my lover singing echoed from somewhere in the room. I hop out of bed ready to greet my lover.
"Jihoonie" I call out
I freeze I'm in a hospital. I started to panic
The doctors sense something in the room and come in. They freeze when they see I'm up.
"he's AWAKE" on of the doctors shouted in the hallway and soon people filled my room. All who I knew and loved. I looked around for the love tho but I couldn't find him
Jeonghan seemed to have noticed this and shook his head.
"Do you remember why you are in here soonyoung" he said
I shook my head
"After lee jihoon cheated and broke up with you with choi seungcheol. You turned crazy and locked yourself in the studio. Only listing to jihoons songs on repeat and dancing to them which you fell from over exhaustion."
"You've been asleep for months hyung" Chan said trying to hold back his tears.
Then everything hit me. I was never I'm a good relationship with jihoon. Jihoon was never really mine
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The concept for this chapter changed so many times while writing it I don't even know what my original was. Haha.
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