A billionaires love

Thirteen

It's been a week since I've seen my Lincoln, a week of ignored messages, calls and even emails. I've put off meeting with him. I felt like I've had my outburst of rage and I've got nothing else to say. But I know I still want answers, so I reluctantly agreed to meet him for coffee. A public place with strangers where I can't scream or shout.

"I ordered you a hot chocolate with whipped cream, just what you loved as a child" he smiles pushing the cup towards me.
"Yes, when I was a child" Ben though I still love them then.
"I know you want answers, Ashley" he says. "I want to give them to you, I want to be apart of your life" he says but right now I need to tell him how I feel.
"When you left it broke my heart, I was always a daddies girl. But you just left me and didn't tell me why." I take a deep breath fighting back the tears, he doesn't say anything just let's me calmly say my piece "then when Richard came into my life I was a mess, I didn't want a father figure I wanted my real dad, he loved me from the moment we met, he been my dad and will continue to be my dad. I know it might sound horrible and hard to hear but it's the truth, if you never left it wouldn't have been like this" I slouch back into the chair and sip on my hot chocolate.
"You can ask me anything" he says.
"Why? Why did you leave me?" The one important question I have, the one I've thought about for years.
"It was hard, Ashley" he gazes down at the table "I couldn't be the father you deserved, I was a lawyer with a drug addiction" I never knew he had a drug addiction."I had to leave, your mother and I had a very rocky relationship and it became hostile because of my addiction" he takes a breath looking back at me "even when we separated i was causing her so much hurt, I couldn't behave like that anymore or let you be around me or my environment. I wouldn't let it happen"
"Why didn't you call or anything?"
"I knew you'd be better off without me, Ashley. Just look where you are now" he smiles "you're beginning a career in what you love, you've always loved it. You use to change your bedroom all the time when you were little and nobody could decide a single thing" he reminisces "you've got a great boyfriend, now"
"Why didn't you let drew tell me about you?"
"Honestly?" I nod my head "I hated him, but I knew you held so much hate for me that I couldn't, I couldn't let you know I was here. In a way I thought, I hoped you'd look for me. I was waiting for you and drew to end things" His face drops, looking more disappointed and hurt.
"Look" I say pulling on my jacket, ready to leave "this has been more than enough for one day" I say "but this, father, daughter bond you want isn't going to happen over night, nor will it happen in the near future because the family I need I already have" I stand up "I'm sorry, Lincoln but it won't, not yet. I have things to focus on, I have jack pushing and helping me down the path I need to be on. Jack had helped me grow as a person, as an interior designer and he makes me happy"
Lincoln stands up, picking up his coat from the back of his chair "and he's keeping you off the drugs?" He Asks with a raised eyebrow.
"Not that it has anything to do with you, since you're the ex addict, I'll gladly leave that title to you. But no, I've not been taking and I was never. Nor will I ever be addicted. Goodbye" I quickly turn and leave the coffee shop, letting the cold bitter air wash over my body. I spot jacks cat across the road where he left me and head to him.

Sinking into the passenger seat I let out a breath of relief. Thank fuck that's over.

|||| daddy and daughter reunion at cafe lala? Doesn't look like they've made up for lost time, and it doesn't seem like there's any love lost, at least not from Ashley. Ashley got spotted quickly leaving and into boyfriend jacks Audi. Her knight in shinning armour once again rescuing our troubled princess ||||

"I hate that man" I say, sitting up and grabbing my water bottle from the bottle holder in his car. "He thinks he can waltz back into my life and we'd have this father daughter bond straight away but it's not going to happen jack"
He faces me before driving off and placing his hand in mine he gently squeezes it "I know, if you don't want anything to do with him that's your choice, Ashley. Nobody will ever make you do something you don't want to do" He smiles.
"I told him I wasn't ready and I won't be ready anytime soon, I told him I wanted to focus on you and my new career, I don't think he was happy because he threw drug using and drink in my face" I roll my eyes, the annoying man.
"Fuck him" jack snaps
"But he left because he was addicted to drugs" I laugh.
"He can't say anything then, can he" he starts the car and the sound of the radio plays through the speakers. "Do you want to go for some dinner tonight?" He Asks "I've got work soon but after that we can"
I shake my head "no, I don't want to go out. Not tonight, jack"
He smiles "ok, we can stay in, do you want to stay at mine?" He Asks a little worried that I'll say no.
"Yeah, I'll make us some dinner" I reach over the his thighs gently stroking it.