I don't expect readers and I know the celebrities and idols I write letters to will never see this, but I want to do this anyway to share my feelings.
If you do end up reading, please feel free to share your feelings too
On the 18th of December 2017, you took your own life. I can't believe it and I'm feeling a mix of emotions. I feel sad, nervous for Shinee's future, and thankful for everything you have done. No one will be able to forget you because you changed so many people's lives. You were very important to fans and others in the industry, so many idols are posting on Instagram and Twitter about you leaving this world. You have worked so hard and we are all proud of you! I know for sure that you would be an angel now and I hope you watch over your fans, your sister and band mates. I wish I could've met you but I'll hopefully see you someday in the far future as an angel too. You are gone too soon. You were only twenty-seven and never deserved this or depression to begin with. No one does. I want you to know that you are the reason I got into Shinee in the first place. When I heard 'Tell Me What To Do' the first time, you caught my attention. You were so handsome and your voice was so beautiful, that I couldn't stay away from Shinee. Now 'Tell Me What To Do' makes me cry uncontrollably. It was when I started to love you, when I started to love your group. It is still my favourite Shinee song, but has a whole new meaning to it now. Everyone will miss you so much. I hope that Shinee will have a positive future, and I know you will hope for that too. That's just the type of person you are. You were hilarious and fit so well with your group members. You seemed to care so much for everyone else, including your fans. Along the way, did you begin to stop caring about yourself? You were just so wonderful I can't believe it's true that you are gone. I don't think anyone expected you to leave so soon. I didn't even know until last night when I went to watch one of my favourite Youtuber's videos. Everyone in the comments were saying things like, "did you hear about Jonghyun?" Or "R.I.P. Jonghyun." I know it seems kinda like I was wishing your situation onto someone else, but it wasn't like that. When you hear things like that, you can't help but pray that it's not them and that it is someone else. I was praying that it was all just a lie. My hands were shaking as I typed the words 'Jonghyun's death' into the search bar. I just couldn't believe it was you. I still can't believe it. I just wish everyone in the world would wake up and it was all just a dream. That you are still with us, singing and performing. We will all miss your beautiful voice and your personality and presence. I refuse to ever forget you. I will always consider you a part of Shinee. They will always be a five member group. My heart goes out to your family, friends, your other fans and the rest of Shinee. I know none of us will forget you. You worked hard Kim Jonghyun. Thank you.
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