It Is What It Is -Zion Kuwonu

facetime call

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ZIONS POV 

I can not believe I have just told the boys about me and my little thing for Maddy. I don't even know them a lot yet alone trust them. 

today has just been a long day and its getting late. I think its time for me to go home. 

"guys I'm going to go home because its getting late and I'm tired. I want to get a shower n go sleep for school tomorrow" I say as we are sat in a big circle swigging off our hot coffees. 

"you need a ride bro?" Austin asks.

"nah I'm cool thanks, only live a few block down" I smiled and got up. I got outside and started walking home. 

I cant get Maddison Beer out my head. Maybe Edwin is right, I need to leave her alone. its better for me so I don't start to fall in love with a girl whos already in a relationship and its better for her aswell as she doesn't have to put up with Geo going mad when ever she is with me. 

this is going to be hard though as she sits next to me in class. I will just have to get my head down and do some work. 

this is a struggle for me. 

MADDISONS POV 

I get home from picking up my car and I ask Geo if its alright if he goes home because I'm tired and I want to go to sleep and also I secretly want to go on facetime to Zion. this will cause a lot of shit but he cant stop me from being friends with someone I actually like! 

"Juwany?" 

"yes babe" he looks at me with his cute ass face. 

"is it okay if you go home because I'm really tired so I want to go sleep for school tomorrow?" 

"sure baby, just text me okay?" he kisses me and he gets his stuff and leaves. 

I go upstairs and put on my jogging bottoms and vest top. I take my makeup off and put my hair up in another scruffy bun. 

I get out my phone and I start to text Zion. 

me- heyyy! want to facetime for a bit, miss speaking to you! xo

I put my phone down on my bed and get my MacBook out and wait for him to reply. 

its been a hour... why isn't he replying? 

ZIONS POV 

I get home and get a shower. I lie on my bed naked and I hear my phone go off. ive got a text. 

I look at my phone and its from Maddy. 

it reads: heyyy! want to facetime for a bit, I miss speaking to you! xo 

I look at my phone for a good hour and think whether to text her back or not. I also miss talking to her but I don't want to get into something that's clearly a messed up situation. 

FUCK IT 

I grab my phone and text back 

me- sure, I miss speaking to you aswell!! xo

crush <3- what took you so long to reply? xo

me- oh yh sorry, was in the shower xo 

          I will call you now. 

I click on the name and call her. 

she picks up instantly. 

"heyyy!" she shouts down the phone. I start to laugh 

"hiya, wassup?" 

"nothing really just wanted to facetime you" she smiles. 

"listen Maddy..." I scratch the back of my kneck. 

"your scaring me?" she says as she looks like she saw a ghost.

"I don't think its a good idea if we carry on talking..." 

"what do you mean! is this because of Juwany!" she shouts

"sort of, but that's not it." I say looking down to the floor.

"then what Zion?" she looks really upset. shit. 

"your in a relationship...I think I'm starting to like you badly and I don't want to fall in love with someone who is already in a relationship. plus I don't want you getting hurt, Austin told me he abuses you and that if I get in the way its only going to make things worse. I don't want him to hurt you just because we are talking and chilling with eachother" a tear falls down my face as I don't want it to end this way but I feel like I'm doing the right thing. 

"Zion honestly, I think I'm starting to catch a bit of feelings for you too. as soon as I saw your beautiful face I instantly thought your the one but ive got Geo. he shouldn't stop us from being friends though! ive already told him he cant stop it and he wont! I wont let this happen Zion! I wont let him hurt me anymore! I promise you." 

"you cant promise that Maddison. Geo will not change the way he is with you. I just don't want you to get hurt. I'm sorry..." 

all I heard was crying from Maddy and I ended the facetime call. 

I threw my phone to the other side of my bed and started to cry. I cried so hard that I cried myself to sleep. 

MADDISONS POV 

I cant believe Zions left me like this. left me in this state. 

This must mean something, do I really like Zion? 

do I not love Geo? 

a lot of questions was flowing through my head. I didn't know what to believe. I'm so confused. if Zion likes me like he just said he did then why would he leave me like this and ever want to speak to me ever again?  I don't get it. 

this is going to awkward tomorrow in class as I have to sit next to him. I will ask Brandon to swap seats. 

I have to talk to him. do I text him? will I seem like a beg?

I finally fell to sleep.