Bleeding Hearts

Chapter 4. Jane

"It makes me smile when people are assholes for no reason at all. They have no idea how much their bullshit fuels people like me."

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"Landon!" I yelled with my arms wide open as the little boy jumped into them. I picked him up as his small, fragile arms were thrown around my neck squeezing tightly.

"I miss you, sissy." He cried into my hair as I held my brother tightly in my arms.

"I miss you too little bro."

I looked over to Louis who was talking to some older woman. As if he felt my eyes on him, he glanced at me to smile slightly seeing our moment. I smiled back; the feeling of actually seeing my little brother's face made me feel so much better.

"Oh, Jane!" A screechy voice called from the distance as mine and Louis' eyes followed where it was coming from. I rolled my eyes as I seen Aunt Kathy coming towards us quickly; I held onto Landon tighter. "Landon, get down from there. I know she doesn't want you to ruin her look." She said sarcastically, but smiling ever-so-evilly.

"He's fine," I snapped as her smile vanished, followed by a smirk. She became close enough to whisper in my ear, opposite side from Landon.

"I wouldn't advise an attitude, dear. We wouldn't want everyone to know your little secret, now would we?" She taunted me as I turned towards her in anger.

"You wouldn't."

"Try me," She smiled walking away from Landon and I. I froze in place when I thought of how such a evil woman could even be slightly related to someone sweet as my mom, let alone being her sister.

My secret... The thought of that thing scared me. She had never threatened me with it before, so why now? I hated her knowing, and I hated her the only one to know something like that. It wasn't my fault, she just happened to be there at the time.

"What did she want?" Liam asked standing beside of me, referring to Kathy.

"She doesn't want Landon around us, that's what." I told him shaking my head.

“That’s our little brother,” Liam said, ruffling Landon’s hair. “There’s not much she can do. Don’t worry.” He said, giving me a slight smile as I put Landon down; he grabbed my hand.

Us three walked through the gates and towards everyone else; along with the casket our father laid in. I felt my heart sink down as I seen his body lay there from a distance. Would I be able to do this? Whether I was ready or not, I would have too be.

Especially for my brothers. I promised Dad that I would take care of them even if they didn't need me.

We took our seats in the main front; Liam on the end and Landon in between us. Louis joined minutes later grabbing my hand and squeezing.

I wanted this to be over already. I didn't want to have to see him, though he was only a few feet in front of me now. I knew it was something I would have to get over eventually because he is in a better place.

Everyone gathered on in as Kathy took a seat on the far end, away from Louis. From the corner of my eyes I seen him glare at her but she didn't pay any attention.

The pastor stood on the small platform that was put together; a microphone placed in front of him. He turned on the switch and began speaking.

"Today, we are gathered in the memory of John Gregory Payne..." He trailed off in my mind.

I studied the background of this place as I tried to focus on something different rather then this. Hell, anything was better than this. It was actually pretty peaceful besides all of the sadness and the gravestones along with the gloomy sky around it. The grass looked fresh and the trees were standing tall and proud. Not the typical place for a graveyard.