IDOL LOVE SERIES

Chapter 15

Jessica POV

 I barely eat and now I can’t sleep. No one will ever understand this situation of loving someone who never loved you and maybe will never ever love you back. With this kind of life, every single detail could be a lie. Sometimes, the more you tell the truth to the media, the press, appears to be the most doubtful thing about your life. I know that I choose this kind of life but what I don’t understand is that even the person I loved the most, betrayed me and torn my heart away.  I look at my watch and it is exactly, 11:11. The last time I wish for someone to comfort me was Jimmy. I guess it’s not the thing that I need rather wishing this pain to get into an end. Even a person came; nothing would change because just like what I said, it will never be understood and be accepted. I wish for my magic 11:11 the answers to my questions. Should I really be affected? Does he really feel somethin’ for me or just playin’ me around?  I cried a lot cause nothing happens. I guess my 11:11 magic didn’t work out. I sighed. Then, in an unexpected encounter, I heard footsteps which made me weirdly angry. I am having this moment and now what?  “Go away! Whoever you are, I wanna be alone!Just go. I mean it,” I exclaimed but tried to explain it in the softest voice that I can. Of course, I don’t wanna let others wake up too. Most of all, I’m asking for answers not a disturbance. “ Are you alright?”familiar words from a familiar voice to a very unfamiliar moment. It was Phillip Phillips again. The American Idol winner who hurt me ruins my moment. I turn around and look at him, “ Oh. I am sorry for answering you that way but I just wanna be alone.” “ Jess, I…..” completing his sentence, “I’m sorry.” “ For what? Whatever it is, I don’t care. I’ll get up. Good night,” said it while still thinkin’ what his apology supposed to mean. I choose to walk away and leave him. “ I guess I just need to. I don’t know why I feel guilty,” said Phil. “You don’t know? This is craziest thing Phillip Phillips ever said,” feeling so pissed off that he can’t get me straight. “Jessica, I couldn’t just be the man that you want to,” Phillip said. “What’s wrong with you? The last time I check you’re just my friend even….” I just can say it. “Even I almost kissed you? That suddenly liked you?” This is the moment that our feelings suddenly erupt like a volcano which melts us down. “ Are you saying that you like me?I’m so tired of playing games Phil! You just said that you still loved Hannah. Then now, what?” “I just got caught up with Colton. He’s my best friend and he obviously likes you.” “Remember what you said the last time we had this conversation, ‘What about the girl you love?’ Don’t you want to know what she feels for you?” He turned around and replied, “Are you saying that you like me too?”and turns his head back trying to give me his killer face that can’t be resisted by any ordinary girl. I got confused and wanna drop this. “This is over! I’m not gonna let you..” said it unfinished because he pulled me and I felt his arms hold my waist tighter than he never did. Tears fell in my eyes while I hear his heartbeat.  “Please Jessica. It is over. Stop this pretending thing.” his words felt like the answers to my 11:11 wish. He continued in tears, “I miss you Jess.” Then, his fingers lingered to my eyes; nose and clears ever drop of my tears falling. He hugged me again and suddenly kissed me in my forehead. Both of us don’t want this to end. I realized that we are not here pretending. However, this thing doesn’t clear everything but proves our love is something real. Then, we both heard a strange noise that someone might have been watching us here.