After moving the chairs and tables out,I went out of school and realized I had nothing to do,I thought deep on what should I do next.But I ended up thinking the wrong way round which ended in me thinking how empty and pointless my life really is.All I've done in my life was just being busy of schoolwork and had no chance to think of my future.I feel like I'm following the footsteps of an ordinary worker who's not happy about their occupations.I want to do meaningful things but I procrastinate too much.Thinking of that made me feel some sort of despair and this led me to hop on a bus that I KNEW that it's going to lead me to nowhere.
Taking buses for me actually helps me to relax and calm down for some reason and I had made some conclusions about my concerning my future.There's no need to rush things,opportunities come in naturally but it's only the matter that I grasp it or not.Of course,I can't be too passive about things.But I don't need to overly rush it either.
Everyone is their own individual,I don't need to be dead inside when I grow up by following EVERYONE else's footsteps.I should and will find my own way out of things and live a not-so-pointless life.
I don't need that much comparisons with other people either.Sure,it might do some good but it does certainly bring in unnecessary pressure and it doesn't feel like the improvement is for my own good.I should do comparisons with my past self to make room for self-improvement and maybe through this,I can live more meaningfully as I strive for constant change.
Maybe it's about time I take that 'Outstanding trash teen' keychain out and have a new start.
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My Personal Trash
RandomAs a person who complains too much.This is for expressing my feelings about things(mostly without much thought) so I can HOPEFULLY complain less when talking to people and let my older self poke fun of my silly thoughts.
