Title: I'm Sorry
Genre: Romance, Angst
Characters: Taeyeon & Krystal
Author: chocomint89
KRYSTAL POV
I saw with my eyes how hard she cried for a dearest friend on his last wake and I couldn't do anything to console her, whispering encouraging words of comfort, I only watched her from behind with someone else embracing her fragile self as she burst into tears, I could only watched her back while wishing I was the one who held her into my arms, how I wish but there's media around us and knowing it would ruin us I didn't approached her I just silently cried by myself without anyone by my side. We've seen each other in the funeral and passed by like were strangers, she only glance at me with her swollen eyes from crying until dawn but my inner self couldn't do anything but to glance back with the same state, I felt coward and hopeless when I saw her with someone whom I not close with, she chose to be with them instead of her own girlfriend who was also in grief but I understand how cruel and unfair the world for both of us. Just breathe Krystal you can do it! I pitifully said to myself as I restrained my self to let out all the burden and pain into my shoulder, I had no courage to stood by her side and tell everyone we belong with each other and that were already taken not other way around. I had nowhere to go but in my older sister's sister who was also in grief losing someone whose dear to us, a great friend, an older brother and a good sunbae that always watching over his hoobae.
"C'mon we have to go." I came back in reality when my manager spoke at the back escorting me inside the hall so we could ride in our car to follow the procession.
One last glimpse on her direction and our eyes made contact again, were both devastated now that we almost forget we aren't strangers. The tall pretty woman ushered her inside to follow the procession and our gaze break and we both lead inside without even smiling at each other. I sighed knowing how we could deal with our relationship afterwards but most important is our dearest friend's last burial. I followed my exhausted manager and the sea of closest people inside the hall so we could reached the private burial rights.
TAEYEON POV
I lose a brother and a friend that I forgot my own life as I stood infront of his grave after he peacefull buried six feet below the ground, my eyes are hurting from exhausting cries I couldn't held anymore, I kneel while I cried hard into my knees as I recalled my memories with him, he's really great and I'm proud of him, my trail of thoughts were broke when I felt warmth behind me, hugging me from the back and somewhat a familiar scent invaded my nose I instantly knew whom it belongs, I let her invades my space as my body fell into her arms before I continue my sobbing, goodness everyone got back into the funeral hall and few were left, I'm not trouble because they were closest with us so they already knew about our relationship.
"How are you?" She spoke with her hoarse voice knowing she cried like me until dawn, I secretly watching her from afar avoiding gossips between us because were surrounded with media.
"We both knew were not fine and we need each other right now. I'm sorry for ignoring your presence, we both know we have to." I explained and I felt her nod at the back of my head as she sniffes my hair, she usually does it often, a habit that I loved. I held her cold hands that encircled on my body.
"I hope he's in a happy place where he belongs right now." She said as she tightened her embrace giving me a silent comfort as I pressed my body more into her front.
"I knew he's already there in a peaceful place." I replied back before I turned my head to stare at her beauty. I felt sorry for her because she always patience at me and understand me well, I knew she was jealous from the look in her eyes I feel it.
"It's been a tough day for both of us so you need a good sleep with me tonight in my arms." She offered before I weakly nodded due to sleepless night of the funeral where I prayed until dawn for his soul.
"Sure." I answered shortly before she pulled me to stand on my feet and lead me into her own car as we drive into our secret apartment.
"You take a bath first I will prepare our light dinner." She said how lucky I am with her despite of her cold demeanor she's very warm inside, always taking good care of me since my bestfriend left me for her study, she immediately offered that we need to move-in together so she could keep an eye on me and I quickly said yes before we packed everything.
"Sorry I had no appetite." I plainly said before I tossed my jacket in our couch and slowly stripping my clothes off and wear a comfortable pajamas as my body dragged me into our king size bed.
"Can I join you?" She asked permission first as she knew how sensitive I am when I'm not in the mood, she's being too careful like I was a fragile glass that need to handle with care, oh how I love this girl so much. Instead of an answer I patted the space beside me and she quickly joined me as she put the blanket over our body and wrapped me into her arms.
"Don't be too hard in yourself, share your burdens with me, I got you." She whisperded before kissing the crown of my head and forehead. I snuggled myself inside her warm embrace.
"Thank you Soojung." I whispered back into her chest as I heard her heartbeat that belongs to me.
"Let's sleep and stop being too dramatic right now." She chuckled before she quickly capturing my soft lips that linger for a minute.
"I love you my baby Tae." My heart felt fireworks when she said those words into my ears.
"I love you too my Soojungie." And my eyes started to feel heavy and I sleep peacefully in her arms before she joined me into dreamland.
The End.
A/N: Stay strong everyone especially Shawols, I knew he already arrived in a happy place. My deepest condolence on his family.
#YouDidWellOppa
#RIPKimJonghyun
