CYBERSPACE LOVE

CHAPTER 7

One day on his facebook wall, I found a chat between a girl and him. He never mentioned about that girl to me. They both used "darling", "dear". My face turned red and I cried. I called him but he didn't attend my call. I called him again and again there was no response from him. So, I texted him "I don't know how you take this... When I saw your wall, I almost broke. I can't bear with if any girl addresses you "dear" or "darling". Also I feel the same when you do to other girls. I am very much possessive about you. I know this is bad. But what to do? I am human with feelings. I hope you understand. Reply me once you see my text."

I waited for two days. I had no reply from him. Above all I missed him. So I thought to leaf through his wall. I found that he deleted that conversation. I was happy that he did for me. The next moment I saw something awful, that I should never have tried to see his wall. The same girl and he had another conversation where she said... "honey, I miss you". He replied "Don't post on my wall. Come on chat". So... he had time to chat with this girl but he could not pick up my call and say atleast that he was busy.

I didn't want to cry because he didn't worth my tears. Sarah was right. I made a wrong choice. I lost all my strength. I still couldn't believe he was cheating on my back. I did unfriend him. I left him a text.

"You cheated me. We are done. Goodbye." I deleted his contact from my mobile. I wanted some shoulder to cry on. I can't go to Sarah for she already told me. It was hard for me to pass next few days. Every time my mobile rang, I cried. My ringtone was "wait for you". I also deleted that song from my mobile. I tried to distract myself from his thoughts. Though I couldn't forget him, I stopped thinking about him.

I was feeling better until I got a message from an unknown number.

X: Hi

ME: Who is this?

X: Your ex-boyfriend.

ME: Don't text me. I don't want to talk to you.

He called me. I didn't want to attend but I did.

Carter: Thank you. I know you will attend my call. You may pretend that you hate me but deep inside you love me.

ME: Don't waste my time. What do you want? Why are you disturbing me?

Carter: Listen to me for some time. Then I won't disturb you.

I had bad time these days. I fought with my dad and had no money to recharge. That is why I couldn't call you. I could have texted you but I was in bad mood and I don't want hurt you.

ME: What about that conversation with that girl?

Carter: YOU have mistaken. She is my cousin, my sister like. I thought she could help me recharge mobile balance. I couldn't ask that help in public and so asked her to come in private chat.

ME: Thousand times.... Sorry.

Carter: Don't be sorry. It was my mistake, partly. My part was that I should have made you aware of my situation.

ME: Love you. 

Carter: I know baby.  So no problem between us right?

ME: yeah.

Carter: Fine. I have to go. My mum is calling. Love you.

(He kissed me and hung up.)

I was in a state of confused reactions. I didn't know if I had to be happy for we were back into relationship or have to worry for oppressing myself these days for the wrong perceptions. From then I decided that my possessiveness should not rule our relationship since it may destroy the love chain between us. I made up my mind that even if he uploads his photo with girls, I would not care. I know he is for me and he made it clear now.