games // ziam

iv. liam

i don't know why i said what i said. i want to do it with him, i want be in a relationship with him. i want something more than just being real close friends. but something inside of me just wanted to call him a slut.

"can i just die?" i say into my hands, frustrated about the whole situation.

"can i die with you?" niall said, a failed attempt at comforting me.

"you're supposed to be helping me feel better, not kill yourself with me" i said.

"this is me helping. was trying to get you to laugh, but it guess it didn't work" niall sighed and looked the other way, "oh look who's coming"

i turn my head to the direction he was looking and see zayn coming towards us.

"i'll leave you two love birds alone. but if you need me, i'll be in the art room" niall said, leaving the scene.

zayn was standing in front of me, there were tears in his eyes.

"look—" zayn started to say but i just had to interrupt him.

"no, let me talk" i said and zayn said nothing else, "i'm sorry for calling you a slut. i didn't mean to. i mean, at the time when i said it i just felt so much built up inside and i had to get it out. but i shouldn't have done it that way. i'm really sorry, really. please forgive me. i love you zayn"

"i love you too liam, but what hurt me is not the fact that you called me a slut. i know i am. is just... i never expected it from you"

"i'm sorry...i really am" i feel the tears coming. i can't believe i'm really gonna cry in front of him.

"liam..." zayn said while he walked over to me and sat down.

"just...leave me alone. i don't deserve a friend like you. i don't deserve anyone"

"liam don't say that"

"well tell me it's not true, tell me i'm not a horrible friend"

"you're not a horrible friend"

i look at him and he looked at me and we just stare at each other, waiting for something to happen. but knowing that neither of us knew what exactly the other one wanted we just sat there letting time do its thing. we both felt the need to close the gap between us, but we can't act upon that.

"zayn"

"don't say anything else, let's just enjoy each other's company"