Emison: The Flashback Years

Deserve Better

Ali's POV * 4 days later* 

I've been staying home from school for the pass couple days. I can't get over everything. I killed me and Em's childen. She trys to act like it's not my fault when it clearly is all my fault. I never got to actually see my baby. If i just stayed home. I would still have him. We found out it was a boy a couple hours before i fell. Em keeps trying to make me go to school. I know she is hurting too but i can't help but shut her out. I hear i knock at my door. " Come in." Emily walks in with some food in her hands. " I brought you some food i didn't know if you ate." I smile a little and she sets it down. She sits on my bed. I can't help but cuddle up to her. She wraps her arms around me. I take a deep breath " I really don't deserve you Em." She rubs my back. " You deserve way more Alison." I shake my head " No i don't." 

She leans so she's looking at me " Your still blaming yourself for what happened." I get tears and nod. " Of course i would why wouldn't i be blaming myself it's my fault, i'm the one who left the house i'm the one who slipped, not you it was all me." She  strokes my cheek and shakes her head " Alison quit blaming yourself please nothing is your fault." I melt into her touch. " How are you still with me after what happened." I have tears looking up at her. She kisses me with so much love in it. " Because just because what happened happened doesn't make my feelings for you go away." I lay my head on her chest. " You should dump me." She holds me close " I fianlly able to call you mine i'm not going to throw that away because of what happened." I start to cry in her chest

" How could you love me I'm just a mistake I ruin people's lives i ruined yours." She shakes her head. " You never ruined my life i love you because you were the first person to accept me for who i am." She rubs my back. I feel myself getting tried as we cuddle.i dift off to sleep with Emily's arms wrapped around me protectively. I wake up in a dark room. I look around. I hear a baby's cry in the distance. I walk where the sound is coming from. I walk up to a blue baby crib. I look in the crib to see a little baby boy with ocean blue eyes. He stops crying when he sees me. 

He reaches his arms out to me. I pick him up. He seems so familar. I feel a conects to this kid. Oh my god. I know why i know this kid. He's my kid. I hold him close to my chest. " I love you little Jakey." He giggles. I feel my arms get lighter i look down to see him fadding away. That was my only chance to hold my son. 

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