PLEASE STAY (GxG)

The Past

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I'm here at the rooftop. Lahat ready na. Lights, music, flowers, everything para maging perfect tung date na to. Girlfriend ko nalang ang kulang. It's our 2nd anniversary. I want this day to be perfect.

Simula kaninang umaga, hindi ako nagparamdam sa kanya, bakit? Ewan ko din. Nagpapamiss lang. Hehe at kanina pa din vibrate ng vibrate tung phone ko sa mga messages at calls nya. Kinakabahan ako dahil alam kung maladragon kung magalit to, pero alam ko worth it lahat ng gagawin ko. Ni di ako nagpakita sa kanya kanina sa school. Now, I'm really nervous.

"Wala pa ba sya?" Sabi ko sa kaibigan ko na kasbwat sa planong to.

"Relax beb. She's coming. On the way na daw sila Alex." Agnes, my best friend said.

"Okay, how do I look?"

"You look beautiful as always."

"But not as beautiful as hers."

"Okay. Alam ko naman na whipped ka dun eh Hahahaha humanda ka na beb, malapit na daw sila"

I fixed myself one more time and then look at the door to finally open.

As if on cue, the door finally opens revealing her friend Alex and my girl who is really confused.

The music starts playing, our favorite music.

I look at her, she's really beautiful in our school uniform. I know she will be busy today kaya di ko sya inistorbo. Being the President of the Student Organization is really hard. Lalo na may event ang school bukas. But look at her, she's still beautiful even the tiredness on her eyes is evident.

Nag-umpisa akong maglakad palapit sa kanya. Her eyes finally met mine. I can see that she's happy to see me. Pero napalitan agad eto ng lungkot. Bakit sya malungkot? Baka nagmamalikmata lang ako. So I still smile at her.

"Flowers for you, babe."

"Summer, what's this? Di ka ba pumasok dahil dito?"

"Umm. No. Pumasok ako, sadyang di lang ako nagpakita sayo, so surprise? Happy 2nd anniversary babe!" I'm still smiling

She's still silent. Just looking at me, memorizing every part of me.

"I'm sorry I didn't answer your messages and calls simula pa kaninang umaga. Alam ko busy ka, damn. I have a busy girlfriend. But that's the reason why I love you. It turns me on, seeing you so focus on stuffs like that. So I think I should done something, kaya naisip ko to, and it's the perfect day kase anniversary din natin. I want you to know how much happy I am when you said yes to me this day, that I'm very happy when I'm with you. There's no words to describe how much I love you babe". I look at her. Still no response.

"So I prepare a dinner for you babe, Come here. Let's eat."

I hold her hand and guide her to our table.

Nung malapit na kami sa table, bigla syang huminto at binitawan ang kamay ko. My heart broke a little.

"What's wrong babe?"

"I can't do this anymore"

"W-what?" Kabado kung tanong.

"L-let's stop this, This, US. I can't do this anymore"

I stopped.

I look at her if she's serious. And it breaks my heart knowing she meant every word she said.

"Why? Di mo ba nagustuhan? Sorry. I'll make it better next time."

"No .."

"THEN TELL ME! TELL ME KUNG SAAN AKO NAGKULANG! Is this about sa family mo? Babe, I can wait, you have all the time in this world para umamin sa kanila. Babe, I'm okay kahit patago tayo. I can wait. Wag mo lang akong iwan."

My tears never stop flowing now. But I don't care. Mas masakit yung nararamdaman ko sa loob.

"OO! PAGOD NA KO! MALI TO! Mali tung nararamdaman ko. PAGOD NA PAGOD NA KO Sum, PAGOD NA PAGOD NA KONG ITAGO KA. Di kita kayang ipaglaban, I'm sorry. Gusto ko magkaroon ng normal ng buhay, I'm b-breaking up with you."

Tears are also flowing from her eyes.

. Akala ko wala ng mas sasakit pa sa nararamdaman ko, mali. Mas masakit palang nakikita mo na nasasaktan ung taong mahal mo dahil sayo.

I wipe her tears. I smile. Yung pilit na ngiti. Di ko alam kung ano mangyayari sa buhay ko after this.

"Okay" sagot ko ng maubos kong punasan lahat ng luha nya

"W-What?"

"Im letting you go. I'm sorry. I'm sorry kung nastuck ka sakin ng 2 taon. I'm sorry sinyang ko lahat ng time na yun na dapat nagkakaroon ka ng normal na buhay"

Pinipilit ko ung sarili ko na wag mag break down sa harap nya. Pinapatatag ko ung sarili ko. Di ko na kaya.. I need to end this. Kelangan ko pag-isipan ung last na sasabhin ko, baka eto na din huling pag-uusap namin.

"Thank you for everything. I'm the happiest when we are together. Di ko narealize na napipilitan ka na. Don't worry, I'll be ok. Just be happy"

At pagkatapos kong sabhin lahat ng un, I left that place as my heart broke into million of pieces.

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