May 21st - Emptiness, that is all I can feel. Why did this happened to me? How did this even happened? I'm ashamed of myself, if my real friends knew, they would too. Don't even let me get started about my family!
To live this way is horrible. To cry yourself to sleep every night is horrible! All I wish is to go back to that night, the night when everything went so horribly wrong.
It was early March, quite cold here in Minnesota. I've just been at my friend Kate's house at the ranch she lives on. We had ridden houses and talked quite a bit. Kate and I actually isn't the closest but she's okay and we can talk easily with each other. It was getting late and I was about to go when Kate nervously but still serious dragged my into her room, she said she needed to tell me something, she didn't seem upset or anything, just nervous.
When we arrived in her girly room, she asked me to sit down and wanted to ask me this, apparently important question. I sat down on her bed, very confused and stared at her. She was now not as nervous or serious as before, she thought trough what she was going to say and giggle from time to time. Finally she turned to me and just popped the question with a careful smile on her lips.
-Okay look, I need money and I found a way to earn big on.
I already knew why she needed the money, Kate was quite a party animal and held really good and big parties, she often did drugs so I guess that was what she needed the cash for. I was paying attention because I know I had to earn up to my driving license which I needed a money source for to do.
-I'm thinking of, you know, have people pay to have sex with me. She trough out, I was not expecting this!
-What?! Like prostitution?, I asked.
-No,no,no,no well maybe a little but it is this website where you put a photo of yourself up and then guys contact you and they pay you to come over to have some fun.
I needed a minute to think of what just came out of Kate's mouth.
-Please, it'll be fun and it's not dangerous at all, you can block people and if we do this together we'll be absolutely fine.
-Okay, I guess. WTF?! 2 seconds after I said that I regret it!!
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A/N
I need to clear this, most of the things that happens it taken from a book I've read. I read it quiet a while ago like 2,5 years, the worst part is that it's a true story. Anyway, I'm quite excited for this and I hope you are too :D Thanks for reading!
