Voicemails (A McSwarek fanfic)

Chapter 4

"...Diaz/Epstein, Peck/Cruz, Shaw/Price, and McNally will be working with the D's. So serve, protect, and stay focused!" And with that, Best closed parade.

Traci and I walked to the D's office.

"Hey,Trac, you want some coffee?" I asked as I broke the silence. I walked towards the door and stopped and looked at her.

"Umm yea thanks."

"Mkay, I'll be ba-" As I turned out the door, I bumped into someone tall...Sam. "Uh sorry my bad"

"Andy, its fine." Gosh, I love how he says my name.

"Here ya go!"

"Thank ya."

"No problem, so what are we doing today?"

"Well we are looking at 23-year-old Rosalynn Marner who was reported missing last Monday. Someone found a body in the woods Friday, called it in and it turned out to be her. She also had a strange pattern of cuts on her back. The ME found a bullet lodged in her scull. Now we're just waiting on ballistics."

"So do we have any leads so far?"

"Nope, all we got is the body and the bullet."

"Actually they just found another body." Sam chimed in.

"Do you think this has anything to with the body from Friday?" Traci asked.

"Possibly. It's a female. The only link is where they found the body."

"... A field," I said under my breath just loud enough for Traci and Sam to hear.

"Bingo," Sam pointed his finger at me as he spoke. "I'm actually about to head down to the crime scene now. McNally, you coming with?"

"Uh sure, I guess."

"Let's roll." And we headed to the car.

"So how's life?" It was too quiet so I broke the awkward silence.

"Why'd you asked that?"

"Hey I'm just trying to break the silence! It just got too quiet." Sam started laughing when I said that.

"I should've known. You're allergic to silence. Who could possibly forget that?" He looked at me while laughing and gave me that all too famous Sam Swarek smile that I haven't seen in ages. It felt good to talk and joke around like we used too.

"Clearly you."

"Hey now!" We both started laughing.

"Sam! Stop the car!" The laughing and jokes stopped.

"Wha-?"

"Stop the car!" I jumped out of the car and ran to the ice cream stand. As I looked back, I saw Sam roll his eyes and I turned back around.

"What can I get you, Officer?"

"Can I get one pistachio and one strawberry?"

"Coming right up." As the man was fixing the ice cream, I noticed his tattoo. It was a square inside of a triangle with a big x over the top of it.

"Here ya go." I thanked the man, payed him, and walked back to the car.

"Really, McNally, ice cream?"

"What? I wanted ice cream. Here I got you pistachio. I thought you or should I say JD would want some. I still don't understand who would eat that stuff. Its green!"

"McNally, lots of people eat pistachio ice cream. Its good. Try some."

"Sam, there is no way you are gonna get me to eat that green stuff!"

"McNally."

"Fiineee!" I whined and took a bite. "Oh my god, Sam, this stuff is amazing!"

"I told ya." He flashed his signature dimples.

"Can I have one more bite? Pleassee!"

"Go ahead."

"Yess!" I took another bite. "Sam, promise me we can go back and get more on our way back to the station?"

"Why not." I clapped my hands excitedly. A few minutes passed before I spoke up again.

"You never answered my question."

"What question?"

"You know, 'hows life?'"

"Oh thaat one, well," he paused and sighed. "Its been awful."

"How so?" I was curious as to why he said that.

"Because-because I still love you, Andy. I never quit. And every time I see you with him, it- it just kills me on the inside. Breaking up with you was the biggest mistake of my life."

"I-I know." I said it quietly and plainly.

"Know what?" Sam gave me a curious look.

"That you still love me. Sam, when you and Oliver went to the cabin, I guess you butt dialed me and left a voicemail, because I heard everything, Sam, everything. And don't think I don't feel the same way because I do. I miss you crazy and it hurts me every time I see you with Marlo."

"I never loved Marlo. I guess I just used her to get over you which clearly that didn't work."

"Thats basically the same with Nick. Back when Luke and I broke up, Traci was joking around saying, the best way to get over someone is to get under somebody else, talking about you, and I guess one night while we were undercover I let that get to my head. And I slept with Nick, and now I regret it. I was using Nick too, because when I saw you with Marlo, I felt like everyone thought I wasn't over you, which I wasn't, so I tried to fool everyone by being with Nick."

"McNally, will you give me a second chance....a chance for us to start over? I know I screwed up big time but-" He was practically begging me by now.

"Yes, but what about Marlo?"

"I'll talk to her tonight."

"Good idea."

"So how about we start fresh with a pizza, a few beers, and a movie tomorrow?"

"Yea, sounds like a plan!" He grabbed my hand and held it in his. Sam looked at me with a smile on his face.

"McNally, I love you."

"I love you, Sam." I replied as we pulled up to the crime scene.