I got home and just ran to my room. I lay there crying. Asking myself: “why is it always me?” I had had so many heartbreaks before. I heard my phone bleep. I looked at the screen. It was a text from Caroline. ‘Jaz, I know you’re upset but if you can get to fountain studios by 2 o’clock then I’ll meet you there xxx’ what did she want? Where the hell is fountain studios? And how is that gonna help me get over Olly? I text her back. ‘hey Caroline, I have no idea where fountain studios is but I’ll try and be there : ) xxx’ I got back up off my bed and got in the shower. I needed to think things through. Why did Olly pick me in the first place? I'm nothing special. Why has it happened so fast? Why do I have to be the one who’s upset? All of these questions had to stay unanswered. It was one o’clock I had an hour to get ready and I hadn’t even had breakfast yet. I decided to get Nandos on the way. I got dressed into my playsuit, blazer and wedges. Sorted my makeup and hair for the second time today and got into my car. By now it was quarter to two. I got to Nandos, ordered my takeout meal and asked someone for directions. By the time I had found fountain studios I was fifteen minutes late. I rang Caroline. “Hello?” I looked for an entrance while I was talking. “Hey Caroline yeh um how do I get in?” “Meet me by the backstage door; you’ll see my car next to it.” I walked towards her car. “Ok I’m outside!” “I’ll be right there!” I hung up and waited around for about five minutes. Suddenly the door opened and she literally dragged me inside. “Caroline what the hell?! You nearly pulled my arm off!” I said laughing. “At least it cheered you up!” she had a point. We walked to Dermot’s dressing room. I was again star struck because sat there were Gemma Cairney, Dawn Porter, Dermot, Tulisa and Gary. I really needed to get used this whole celebrity thing. “Hey guys this is Jaz, she needs some cheering up...” everyone suddenly wanted to know why. Dermot came and gave me a hug which was weird but I guess I just had to try and not cry again. Caroline was pulling faces with Dawn. Um how crazy can you get? “You alright darl? You look like you might cry...” Tulisa put her hand on my shoulder. I nodded trying not to draw attention to myself. By now everyone was looking at me. Caroline started to explain. Even the sound of his name gave me a lump in my throat. “it’s fine, we’ve known each other 3 days I doubt anything will happen...” I was trying to hide what I was really thinking. Caroline rolled her eyes. “What she really means is I love him and really miss him I’m just lying because I don’t want to cry again...” I looked at Caroline. “Thank you Caroline!” I said sarcastically. “Potato!!!” we all looked at Louis in the door way. “Louis I genuinely think that you need to get a life!” I heard a snobby Simon behind him. The room went silent; it was as if the queen had just walked in. He strolled in. “and who are you?” he bellowed at me. “I’m j, j, j, jasmine, Caroline’s friend...” I was scared stiff. He took Caroline out of the room and none of us said a word. We could hear shouting and then it went quiet. I guess she was explaining about me and Olly. Why do we have to be the centre of attention? Can’t we talk about someone else for once? Caroline came back in, Simon didn’t follow. “Sorry Jaz, he wanted to know.” I looked at her. “Olly or you aren’t in trouble are you?” I said panicked. She shook her head. I breathed a sigh of relief. Caroline was with Dawn so I went to join them. “Aw come here you!” she pulled me into a hug. “I'm fine.” She rolled her eyes but let it pass. My phone rang; I went outside to take the call. “Hello?” I said without even looking at the screen. “Hey Jaz...” it was a really tired Olly. “You alright Olly?” he sighed. “I guess...” I laughed. “That’s a no then!” he giggled. “I’m just tired and feeling quite bad about earlier...” I sighed. “Olly don’t feel bad... we’ve known each other three days I shouldn’t have gotten so upset. You at your next stop yet?” I heard people in the background. “Yeh we are I'm going on stage soon for rehearsals and stuff I just wanted to make sure you were okay...” I shook my head. “Olly I'm fine go and have a good time!” I laughed. “I’ll try...” he was so annoyingly cute. “No you will! You aren’t letting your Murs Army down for me! I am part of that army and I want you to do well!” I can be a tough one to crack you know! “Okay missy! I will! See you soon!” “Bye Olly!” we hung up. I got myself together before going back inside... I'm not sure whether they were listening or not. Probably knowing Caroline... I opened the door and everything went silent. “Olly made it to Liverpool okay...” I guess they were listening then. I sat down on my phone and started tweeting random shizz to avoid eye contact. Without me even realising everyone had started to go home. “Jaz you gonna be okay getting back to yours?” I looked up... it was just me and Caroline. “Oh, yeh thanks I’d better be off anyway.” I hugged her good bye and got into my car. I drove past Olly’s house, unintentionally. I saw his mum in the window... she was washing up. As I got home there were numerous answer phone messages. I listened to them all. All from his mum, asking If I was okay. I rang her back. “Hello?” she was very cheery. “Hello is that Vickylynne?” I knew it was but it was polite to ask. “Yes...” “Hi its Jaz... I was just returning your call...” I heard her put something down. “Ahh hello Jaz, are you okay now? Olly said you were very upset.” Not again... “I'm fine now thank you it was just a bit of a shock...” “You’ll get used to things... I had to... as long as you’re okay now... call me if you need someone to talk to...” she has to be the nicest mum ever. “Thank you Vickylynne, Olly made it to Liverpool okay by the way...” we had a lovely chat that really cheered me up. After grabbing some dinner I went to bed... I was exhausted. I text Olly just before drifting off. ‘Good Luck for tonight! If you’ve already performed well done! Had a lovely chat with your mum... hope you’re okay and see you soon xxx’ I snuggled under the covers... the happiest I’d been in a while.
