I can't believe I'm really doing this. But, there's no going back. I packed my clothes, toiletries, various spell books, and other outdoor needs. My financial state was stable for now, but push comes to shove and who knows, I may need to camp for a while. Lightning bolts and thunderclouds littered my belongings which only made me hurt more. But my pleasure and my pain were all because of him.
Laxus.
Out of everyone in the damn world, why the hell did it have to be you?
I've never been in the light. No matter how much I struggle or try to fight my way through thick and thin, I can never find my way out of the storm. Laxus is like a lightning bolt in that storm. He is there when we need him, but then, he's gone in a flash. I wish I could be more than that. More than who I am.
As time has gone on, I've only become more of a burden. Using rune magic on my own body took its toll leaving my lungs in a mess. The master had forbidden me from performing long jobs now. The Raijinshu had gone on well without me. They don't need me. Laxus... Doesn't need me.
It's been a few months since he started working at his new long-term job. Earning a living off being a mage was based on jobs you received, however, to receive a constant source with a complying client was rare. I know it was making a lot of cash for Laxus, but I couldn't help it when I could only catch a glimpse of him if I woke up early or stayed up late. He never noticed me. After all, to him, I was just a roommate alongside Bickslow. It hurt having to leave those fleeting moments behind.
"You don't have to do this, Freed," Bickslow said as I stepped out the door. "Don't leave us." His eyes showed remorse, but it would disappear after a while. I wasn't needed.
"I'm sorry, but I need to. If I stay, I won't be content with myself," I said. Everything inside of me hurt to say something like that. But for what reason could I say otherwise? Laxus wouldn't look at me, let alone be with me. He was my fleeting dream that was barely out of reach. But, I'm running out of strength to chase after him.
"Tell Laxus I send my regards," I said. "Farewell." Without looking back, I walked until the apartment was out of sight. Maybe, it was an impulsive choice. I didn't really have a place to go, but anywhere away from him was good enough for me. Before I realized it, I'd wandered into the more run down parts of town. Seeing an idle bar, I walked in. While I tended to avoid drinking, now was a good time to crash than ever. I needed to forget.
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Dark Embrace (Laxus x Freed Fanfic)
Fanfiction"Is Laxus here?" Those three words came from Freed's jaws every single day since he contracted cancer. Perhaps it was bound to happen. He was, afterall, a mage who specialized in historic spells, yet here was his life ready to join the remnants of h...
