Who Will Win My Heart 3

Chapter 112

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"I-I missed you too," I stutter and her mother frowns at me. I hug back the little girl wrapped around my waist and Mark stands up to his feet.

"Carey can I speak to you for a moment?" He asks her mom and she nods as they walk away from the table.

Ella climbs up on my lab and she smiles up to me. Charlie and Eleanor watch me carefully.

"How are you feeling Ella?" I whisper and she reaches up, pinching my nose.

"Horrible, I'm still going through chemo," she pauses and I glance over to Mark and her mom. Her mother has her hands cupped over her mouth in shock. I'm sure Mark is telling her that I can't remember anything, "but I convinced mom to let me come here. We used to always come here." She smiles and nuzzles her face into my shoulder.

"You broke your promise," she whispers and I snap my head down to look at her, "you promised to come back and see me. The last time I saw you was before my Sunday School teacher, Nick, came to see me. You broke your promise and you forgot about me."

I feel my eyes swell up. I didn't break my promise I just can't remember anything.

"Ella," my voice breaks and I take a deep breath before I continue, "things have been really difficult lately. I haven't broke my promise, I never break my promises. I just got done with my chemo two months ago baby. I haven't forgot about you. I'm sorry," I apologize to her.

I can't tell her. I can't tell her that I can't remember who she is.

"I just missed you a lot," she tells me again as she buries her face into my chest. I hold onto her tightly and small tears roll down my cheeks as I close my eyes.

I lift my one hand and I wipe away my tears. I make eye contact with Charlie and his sympathetic smile makes me feel worse.

Carey and Mark join us again and Carey mouths "sorry" to me and I give her a small smile.

"Ella, we have to get back to the hospital," her mom tells her as she taps her on the back.

The truth is I don't want to let this little girl slip away from my arms. I want to hold her until I remember, I want to remember her and Louis more than anything.

"Okay," she groans and leans up.

She kisses my cheek and hugs me one last time.

"I love you Leah," she tells me and I lean down to kiss her forehead.

"I love you too. I will come to see you next week okay?" She nods at my proposal before following her mom.

Mark now sits across from me and I reaches over, placing his hand on top of mine. I jerk my hand away for a second and then I let him rest his on top of mine for support.

The thing is, I don't want support. I want to remember.

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Instead of going back to the flat with Charlie, I have him take me back to Liam and Anna's house.

I spend the rest of the day cleaning the house. The funny thing is I actually hate cleaning. The only reason why I'm doing this is because Liam and Anna just had a baby and there is no way they are going to be able to keep everything clean.