Depressing poems and shit

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Uh-huh. I see.
You still dont care for me and I am still broken inside waiting to be fixed.
Trying to get a glimpse of my future.
Trying to find love in all the wrong places.
"Ho"ing around as you say.
It doesnt matter.
Nothing will make you turn around and stay with me.
You innocent child.
Trying to keep me from hurting.
You've only made it worse and I cannot breathe.
I am drowning.
Forcing myself to draw in breath that is not there.
Struggling to stay alive under the waves that force me under.
I am not whole.
I cannot be fixed with duck tape and someone's will.
I am delicate and you have shattered me.
Pieces of me are gone.
You have them but I can never have them back.
I am alive. Barely
Wanting to live but also leave this broken world behind.

It was you who shattered me, who shook me to the core, who showed me love and gave me hope. You are the reason. You are my light. You are my darkness. You are everything. But now you're gone. You've left me with nothing. I have nothing, am nothing, feel nothing. I dont know whether to be disappointed or elated to not feel heartbreak. Or maybe this nothingness is heartbreak.
Maybe this is all just something to keep me going.
To keep me from taking anything for granted.
Thank you.
For the memories and love that you gave me.
And for this nothingness you left me with.