hey, it's ya girl liza. i'm still alive. i'm actually doing a lot better. i have grown in my writing and i have definitely changed since the last time i've updated.
i've become a lot happier. i've surrounded myself with amazing people im so happy to call my friends. i have people i can rant to whenever i need to and that's truly beautiful.
my family life has definitely gotten better. or well, i've become more manipulative of situations to make it better for me. i only have a few years stuck in this hellhole town, might as well make the most of it. my motto is "bad decisions make good stories."
my love life is amazing right now. i have fallen in love with my amazing boyfriend who is definitely the nicest person ever and i am so happy to be with him.
but of course, i have gone through some troubles in the last few months. i haven't updated since march, so it's been a good 8 months.
not much really bad has happened, honestly. nothing too major i can think of right now. and i am so glad to say that. to finally be able to say that. i'm living a pretty decent life.
i have outgrown my emo phase, and i'm so happy for that. last year me was so tragic. now i'm taking on a hypebeast/toopoor style along with a basic white girl and a teen in the 90s. all depends on my mood. kinda interesting.
i really enjoy watching david dobrik's youtube vlogs, and shane dawson's conspiracy theories. i love thinking about extraordinary things like that, and really in depth questions about life and existing and just being.
i can say that in the past few months i've become more confident in myself and embracing who i really am, and have found myself, not who i portray to others. i think that's really important. to always be yourself. it's really hard. i've been trying to find myself for so long.
i think i'm writing this just for me, to possibly look back on this book one day and see how much i've grown as a person. i have definitely grown a lot and i love the person i'm becoming.
if you're reading this, thank you. i appreciate you and i am sending good vibes your way.
here's a quote i really enjoy to close this off:
"I used to believe our paths were preordained. That everything that ever happened to us was for a reason, the bad things most especially. And that every loss was not supposed to hurt so much because it was part of some big elaborate plan. Sometimes I still believe that. All these things should mean something."
think about that for a bit.
until next time,
liza.
