What is loneliness? It's not sitting in a dark room rocking backwards and forwards. It's being a part of a crowd, yet still feeling like a complete stranger. It's when others are laughing, and you find it difficult and utterly painful to give a smile. That's loneliness.
When others are chosen before you, that's loneliness.
When you're only used when someone has issues and no one cares about you at any other time, that's loneliness.
Having people nit pick every time you walk in the room and constantly remind you of your flaws whilst apologising for breaking your fucking heart, that's loneliness.
And I wish, someone could have the power to look through my heart and see all the pain behind the smile.
But for that, I'd have to open up; have a person view me as vulnerable. Which believe it or not, is something I'm terribly afraid of.
