Paano ba ako napunta sa sitwasyon na 'to? I know, this is not right, everything about our relationship is not right. But every time that I'm with her just feels so right. She's married and we're having these very illegal relationship. Pero bakit nagmahal lang naman ako. Masama na ba ang magmahal.
"Vice, what's wrong? " tinanong niya ako. Habang nakapatong ang chin niya sa aking dibdib. Nakahiga kasi kami ngayon. This is our alone time together.
"Wala naman." I said while combing her hair through my fingers.
"Are you sure?"
"Sure na sure. Kaya go back to sleep na kasi may work ka pa po tomorrow." I continue combing her hair until she falls asleep.
She's Ana, my friend and my secret girlfriend. She's married for a year already but we met after her wedding. I met at a KTV bar, kumakanta mag-isa mukha siyang baliw. At first akala ko iniwan ng boyfriend kasi yung mga kanta niya puro pang broken hearted tapos ang dami pang mga beer sa harap niya.
I didn't know na she owns the place. Her workers told me that she saw her husband(?) with someone else. Pero dahil kahit sawi siya na-attract pa rin ako sa kanya. I know na she's married kasi sinabi nga ng mga empleyado niya. Nang papasok na ako sa KTV, napaisip ako? Should I? Parang kinakabahan ako. Kaya hindi ko na lang tinuloy but she saw me and called me na pumusok ako. So I have no choice kaya pumasok ako. Then nangyari na ang lahat ng nangyari.
After that incident di na ulit kami nagkita but after a month nagkita ulit kami, but she's so happy and blooming and told me that everything is fine. Medyo nalungkot ako na nanghinaayang pero why? We just had a one night stand. It's not of a big deal right. It's just lust. That's all.
Pero she said na she'll never forgot what we had. So she got my number and the next day she called me. Then it all started. She said na iba talaga pag lalaki yung nagbibigay ng pleasure. And, yes she's gay. She's married to a woman. I don't why did put myself into this kind of mess.
Why am I staying in this kind of relationship? The relationship that I'm the only one who loves her.
