Fuck i miss you. Im talking to other people but all i can think of is you. Its probably my own fault, trying to move on so quick but im so lonely and my heart hurts. I just wanna feel in control again but everytime i feel like i grasp it i fall deeper and deeper. Everyone thinks im fine, im handling this breakup like a champ but im honestly torn. I thought you might have been my forever and now you dont have the same feelings for me. I mean that fucking hurts ya know? The only thing stopping me from trying to get back with you is the fear that you dont want me cause you've made it clear that the feelings, they're just not there anymore and we'll end up getting worse and hating each other. The last thing i wanna do is hate you. I want to fight for you but you dont want me.
