{KSJ} My Beautiful Psycho -BxB-

Lonely

I sit in an empty space
Devoid of color and humanity
My sad, lonely voice
The only thing filling it
The only thing willing to accompany me

     White. Everything is a blinding, boring white. It creates a sharp glow on the man's features as he has a one sided conversation. His gaze shifting all about the room with a slight squint while his features mold into looks of anger, sadness, happiness, and everything in between. He does not mutter, but instead speaks at a normal volume, his words bouncing off of the walls and sliding into his awaiting ears.

     He never used to talk to himself. Not until he was snatched up and placed into the scary yet bright room with padded walls and no one else but him to occupy it. Not until he saw other real people only twice a day so that they could shove pills down his throat and hurt him when he refused.

     Not until he finally felt lonely.

     He doesn't like the institution. He doesn't like the fact that he was taken from his own country because the U.S. International Institution For Mental And Physical Disabilities was deemed more fit to handle him and his condition. He's alone. He wasn't always mentally insane either... Maybe it was when he saw his birth mother kill his father. Maybe it was all the times he had seen his brother kill stray cats and play with their insides like store bought toys. Maybe it was brought on by the onslaught of abuse he has received... It could easily be all three but no one except him knows.

     He speaks o no one but himself, afraid that if he does then he will break down and lose his small bit of sanity. No one here knows the full extent of his background. The are paid to force pills into his mouth and weekly check on his physical health... They don't care if he, or even any of the other patients improve, they are only doing the bare minimum of their jobs. And if they were to ever get bored, they would slink into a patient's room and amuse themselves in many inhumane ways, furthering the chance of improvement in whomever their target may be.

     And it was usually him.

     He refused to satisfy them with screams of pain and terror. He would bite his lip and stare, wide eyed, as they hit him, kicked him, and touched him in places he was never aware that people would touch... At least twice a week they would find a period of time in their days to come down, the same two boys as always...

     Dr.Martin and Dr.Drew. And today was no exception.

     "Seokjin~" a voice sang as the door was unlocked and thrown open. The boy stopped speaking and looked from where he was seated on the floor, to the visitors. "Sorry that we are late, buddy. We were caught up with an outbursting patient so..."

     He crosses his arms as Dr.Drew leans against the once again locked door, both smirking. It took Seokjin a bit of time so see the pill bottle in Dr.Martin's left hand.

     This is different than usual, he thought to himself as he took a step back and stared at the bottle ,Nurse Regina is supposed to give me my medicine! Why does Dr.Martin have it!?

     Dr.Drew makes a mad dash for Seokjin, pinning him to the padded floor and quickly untying him from his straight jacket ,"My, my... How do you manage to stay so fit Jinnie?" He smirks as he stares at Jin's, now bare, chest.

---(It's about to get gross AF just to warn you guys...)---

     Dr. Martin strides over and laughs as he pops open the bottle and sits above Jin's head, causing him to look upside down in Jin's eyes.

     He places a pill onto the patients unmoving lips and says in a sickeningly sweet tone ,"Open up or I'll make sure your dosage gets tripled pretty boy."

     Jin obliges quickly, already having a double dosage because of their last visit. The pill is placed on his tongue and Dr.Martin stands up, patting his pockets.

     "Uh-oh!" He says in a sadistic tone ,"I forgot water! Looks like we'll have to use some kind of substitute..."

     Dr.Drew tightens his grip on the boy beneath him as the other doctor unzips his pants. Both of them snicker and Jin thrashes around in attempt to get free from what is inevitably about to happen.

     The doctor successfully gets his pants to his ankles and lowers himself so that he is straddling Jin's neck, his hand directing his cock at Jin's mouth. Before he can close it Dr.Drew pries it open.

     Then Dr.Martin begins to urinate into the patient's mouth as said boy thrashes and fights against the two men.. He and the other doctor laugh as Jin chokes and sputters on the human waste that is entering his mouth. He gags and ends up without breath, his vision blurred and hazy while his body is sluggish and weak.

     He doesn't notice that the doctors had finished their absolutely disgusting deed and had moved on to kicking him until they too, were at a loss for breath.

     They eventually placed his straight jacket back onto him and left, leaving Jin in a state of shock. He still couldn't breathe and as he sat up, his stomach heaved and he threw up all over himself, all over the floor, and somehow even in his hair.

     The stench grew worse and worse but he didn't move. He didn't want to. All he wanted to do was laugh.

     So he did.

     He giggled and laughed as if he was told a joke. He rocked on his bum and clawed at his arms with his fingers... There he was, acting like a real patient... And there was no denying now that he was not just scared. He was not just sad.

     He was lonely... as he was aware that there was no way to change that.

     So he succumbed to the monster that was hiding inside; clawing at his consciousness and small scrap of sanity, begging for control. He succumbed to the darkness that always crept up on him when he felt the most alone.

     He succumbed to insanity.