{KSJ} My Beautiful Psycho -BxB-

Rain

The sun may never shine again
And the rain may never cease
But a heart still lives within my chest
A heart that starts to beat

Seokjin is laying down... Finally.

He had ran frantically around the small room for almost an hour. There was no reason for it just... running. He would come to where I sit in the corner, stare at me intensly- and kinda close- and then zoom around the bed to the other corner where he would, again, stare at me.

I won't lie, it was kind of cute.

No he is laying peacefully on the bed... I can hear him quietly whispering to humself as he plays with his hands, waving them above him or curling them together or whatnot.

I can't hear what he's saying exactly, I only hear small hisses when he says something with as "s" sound.

Yes, he's obviously showing some very insane behaviors but this is a humongous step for me.

He never talked in front of anyone yet here he is, mumbling and playing around. He would never move from his place on the floor, yet he had been running...

Running and staring...

Staring with those big doe eyes... Oh how cute those eyes are. I could srare at them forever...

"Heheheeee..!"

I jump and stare at Seokjin myself. He's got his hands above him like puppets and one has its mouth wide open, apparently laughing. Seokjin does it again.

"Heheheeee!"

I blink and smile as wide as possible. He's almost talking! This is so brilliant!

I start clapping and the boy startles, slamming his hands on the bed and staring at me with huge eyes.

"Seokjin!" I say happily ,"I'm so proud!"

He looks confused and scared. I get up and carefully make my way to sit on the bed. He continues to stare.

I lift my hand anf make it like a puppet, as he had been doing.

"Seokjin!" I make it say in a fakely deep voice ,"What's so fuuuuunny!"

He blinks before- I kid you not- smiling huge.

He raises his hand up puppet style and SPEAKS.

"Fish with legs! Heheheeee!"

I laugh in glee and make my hand speak more ,"That's pretty funny!"

He smiles even wider and says with his hand ,"You're funny too."

I just chuckle and put my hand down ,"How am I funny?"

His hand also goes down, his eyes suddenly dull again. His head shakes in a way to say 'no'.

Fuck.

I can't let this moment slip away!

"Seokjinnnn!" I taunt ,"Tell me or you'll get tickled!"

He turns beet red and flails his arms ,"Noooo!!!"

I poke his side softly ,"Right here, I'll tickle riiight here."

He rolls and lays on his stomach, pewking over his shoulder at me ,"You're nice."

I just stare at him as he giggles and blushes like a schoolgirl. I'm... Nice?

He giggles more and crawls over to me, whispering in my ear quietly ,"I like you."

Fuck now I'm firetruck red.

How quickly his mood seemed to change... Is he bipolar..? That's not important right now... What's important ia that I get this man-child to stop snuggling up to me.

His hands lay flat on my thighs and his head rests on my chest.

"Seokjin," I complain ,"Get off of me please."

"Only if you dance with meee." He giggles.

Did he just... Quote a children's show!?

"I-" I start.

"Doctor." He quietly sobs. I'm taken aback- what is with these mood changes?

He looks up at me with eyes full of tears. I notice that the far away look is gone and he seems so completely stable and... sane.

"...Help me. Please!"

I can't do anything but stare and watch him clutch my pant fabric tightly. His body seems to vibrate and suddenly he stops.

I watch his eyes slowly teavel up to my face and the small moment of sanity is long gone. He's terrified.

The bed squeaks as he scrambles back and cowers into the bed frame.

I have some thinking to do...

My shoes click quietly as I exit the bed and walk to the corner that I had been occupying earlier. I take the sound machine out of my bag and set it beside the bed.

"Why don't you lay down, Seokjin?" I quietly speak ,"It's been a long day, hm?"

He complies, laying down as close to the other edge of the bed as he can. I turn the sound machine on and the room is suddenly being filled with whale calls.

Seokjin gets curious and slides over to peer at the machine.

I giggle ,"Wrong one."

I press a button on the side until the sounds of rain hitting tree leaves pulsates softly throughout the room.

Seokjin visibly relaxes and rolls onto his back, closing his eyes. I stand up and smile to myself. I plop into my corner seat and wait until I hear soft snotes from Seokjin. Before I leave, I set up a monitor near the other side of the bed and keep its equal on my belt in case he wakes up and flips out.

I make my way to the administration desk on the ground floor. A quick glance at my phone shows me that its around one in the morning, five or so hours after Namjoon's shift had ended.

I decide to send him an email.

Good morning, Mr. Kim.

I stop and decide to word the body carefully.

Seokjin fell asleep very quickly for me. He seemed to really enjoy the aound of rain so I bought a sound device to aid him in sleeping. It was very effective.
He seems to have trauma that stens from many, easily identifiable things.
His progress has been phenomenal since I was assigned as his caretaker but there is still much to discuss of this.

So very much...

I sign off and hit send, making my way back to the room and falling asleep in the corner of the room.