Spoiled | Kellic

Explanation (authors note)

{December 30th, 2017}

hey guys... i'm still alive :-)

i haven't been active with my writing for many reasons. i needed to apply for high schools, i need to focus on my grades and just have to take a break from everything i guess?

a lot of things have happened since i've been gone and most of those events have made me happier than i usually am. i met a new friend, his name is elijah and he is amazing. he is really intelligent, mature and enjoys art. we agree on many things, but we also introduce each other to knew information, people and places. he reads my poetry sometimes and he is always very sweet about any feedback. he's overall a great person and he has somehow balanced my school life (if that makes any sense). there's usually chaotic people, or people who dont bother with caring, and i've always struggled to find a balance between those two things. lately, elijah has been that balance and its really nice to have him around. i have introduced him to my friend finn (who i've known since age 6) and he has introduced me to new short stories that i've fallen in love with (Flowers For Algernon is one of them).

besides meeting a new friend, i've also been discovering a lot about myself as well. i've always struggled with my body image and my appearance but im way more comfortable now than i was in previous years. i am able to wear new things without feeling embarrassed (for example, i bought a pair of 4 1/2 inch platforms and wore them to school). i am also able to try new hairstyles, and overall just try new things.

now, this all doesn't excuse my unexplained absence online. i will explain to you why these things mattered just as much as my writing.

as a writer (or artist), you need to be committed to your work. your work should and must be cherished, they should also get a lot of attention. when making a good book, short story, etc. you must be able to give your all into it. i was in a state of mind where i was creating limitations for myself, and worst of all i was blaming it on other people. i needed to take a break from the internet so i can eliminate these limitations that ive set for myself.

i still of course have things to work on, everyone does. but i have come to a point where i am no longer being held back by my negative thoughts. i am available to do the things i love again (such as writing) without being stressed out or overthinking things.

so... yea, im back guys. i want to thank all of you who are still going to read my stories even though i have taken a long break.

xoxo,
tatiana