l i q u i d | h o n e y [completed]

2018. (EVERYONE HAS TO READ THIS.)

HEY MY LOVELIES! it's ya girl here just wanting to discuss a few things.

last year and the previous years i was such an emotional wreck, i let my depression control me and how i reacted to things. WELL FUCK THAT, IM NOT LETTING THAT HAPPEN ANYMORE. AND NEITHER WILL YOU GUYS.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

trust me, i know how it feels trust me, i really do. i used to cut myself and do all these horrible things to myself because i felt like i deserved it. my self-esteem, complete shit. i just didn't want to be alive anymore. but the thought of me hurting others who cared about me crossed my mind and that's why i didn't decide to end it all. YOU HAVE PEOPLE THAT CARE ABOUT YOU, YOU MAY NOT SEE THEM BUT TRUST ME THEY ARE THERE.

IF YOU THINK YOU'RE UGLY AND WORTHLESS, YOU'RE NOT. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND WORTHY.

one of my old friends once told me, "a butterfly can't see their wings, they can't see how beautiful they are but everyone else can." and that forever stuck with me so i'm passing it to you guys. you can call yourself the ugliest female/male ever, there is someone who sees how attractive you are and beautiful you truly are.

PLEASE, BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY,

THINGS WILL GET BETTER.

FIRST, YOU JUST HAVE TO CHANGE YOUR PERCEPTION ON EVERYTHING.

AND YOU WILL BE ALRIGHT. I PROMISE.

THINGS WE ARE LEAVING IN 2017; SAY IT WITH ME NOW.

• Self hate
• Self pity
• Negative thoughts about my body
• Negative thoughts about myself
• Doubts about my friends and family

HERE ARE SOME TIPS I FOUND ON TUMBLR TO START BECOMING A BETTER PERSON/THE PERSON YOU WANT TO BECOME.

♡ lovely goals for a fresh start ♡

Let myself breathe a little, not everything needs to be perfect

Improve my writing skills and paint everyday
travel to another country

be more consistent and produce better habits

enjoy the warmth that the sun gives off and savor the sound of birds quietly chirping

meditate and let the anxiety in my worry-full mind gently slip away

continue to love myself and others! ♡
( credit to; cherryroses on tumblr )

HERE'S ANOTHER ONE;

2018 self improvement resolutions

• don't use social media as an outlet for every single negative emotion you experience. it does no one any good and you've already learned that those feelings pass quickly enough. no need to flaunt them unnecessarily.
• do use social media for inspiration and as a source of positivity. post about good things, don't reblog/retweet "relatable depression content". comment more. interact. like/save/download things you love and look at them every so often.
• don't waste your time so much. stop endless scrolling sessions on various apps. stop pitying yourself.
• do use your free time. find the motivation to create again; draw and write like you used to. read books. last year wasn't a good year for that. do better.
• don't cancel every plan. don't say "no" all the time to things you might enjoy. don't flunk out at the last second. you don't need every single weekend to "recharge" that's a lie you tell yourself.
• do choose who to spend time on. invest into those that invest in you. make space for your friends if none opens up automatically. make an effort. let yourself be moderately guilt-tripped into committing for once. socialising with the right people has never hurt you.
• don't get worked up about small things you cannot change. it's scary not to be in control but sometimes you simply cannot be. yes, you may be disappointed you failed that exam or stressed about that meeting but that's no reason to shut down.
• do find healthy ways to cope with disappointment, stress and anxiety. you know all too well that this cannot go on. get help. you deserve it,
• don't just stay in your little bubble of comfort. or rather, don't let it stay this small. you won't find adventure where you've already looked.
• do take some risks. make the first step, make a fool of yourself. in moderation, pushing yourself is good for you.
• don't repeat last year's failures.
• do make 2018 your best year yet.

I LOVE EVERYONE ONE OF YOU GUYS. IF YOU EVER NEED ANYTHING DON'T BE AFRAID TO PM ME, I'LL ALWAYS RESPOND.

REPEAT AFTER ME;
here's to 2018.
yes, there will be days where i get down in the dumps.
yes, there will be days when i slip up.
but i WILL NOT let that ruin me.
I AM going to continue to better myself from here on out until the day they put me in my grave.

now that we have that out the way, i'm going to be back and updating on this book.

i love you guys! seriously, i do. 💖

p.s. i also have some book in my drafts that i will release very soon, so be on the look out.