It Has Always Been You... (Jin Fanfiction BTS)

Chapter 8

Jin's P.O.V.

I smiled to myself as I laid Trina down in my bed. Knowing she will be safe in my arms is a very reassuring feeling. I was getting ready to lay down on the bed when Trina started to make small little noises as she began to reach for someone to cling onto. I quickly got into bed and smiled to myself when she touched my chest. She scooted closer to me and wrapped herself around me, snuggling far more into me than she had Taehyung. As I laid there, I remembered that I totally forgot to tell everyone goodnight. I turned into Trina as I shut off the world, hoping that one day she will understand. 

~Time pass, only about a week~

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Trina's P.O.V.

Things were going very well, the boys were working very hard and had started writing songs. And by 'they' I mean Namjoon and Yoongi, the other boys give plenty of ideas but usually end up goofing off. Everything is coming along quite nicely for them, as me, my stress is skyrocketing. It is nothing I can't handle, I don't suppose. The way I see it, there is only one way to handle it.
I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror before peering down at my phone. I haven't spoken to either of my parents since I had left, which doesn't surprise me. Nobody, not even Jin, knows about the relationship I have with my parents. It isn't something I like to discuss so I just deal with the pain in my own way.

I looked at myself in the mirror at all the things wrong with this picture. I wish my hair was straight and long and beautiful like all the other girls here. They are all so beautiful, keeping all the attention to themselves. Even Jin seems to be realizing that my existence is irrelevant. He has been staring at the girl at the front desk at BigHit a lot more here lately. And it wasn't the sweet one we met on the first day, it was the one who always made sure to bend over in front of every passing guy while she wore her tight short skirt and button up that showed her breasts. 

I have heard very awful things about Ji-ae, apparently she does that to all new interns. The sweet one, Cho Lee, has told me a lot about herself. She has quickly become one of my best friends as Jin has begun to slip from my grasp. The way he looks at Ji-ae proves that that is what is beginning to happen, I am loosing my best friend, the guy I had secretly fallen in love with. Still, no one knew of my crush, but now there was no use in speaking up. 

As Jin and I had begun to drift apart, Jungkook, Tae, Hobi, Joon, Yoongi, Jimin and I had grown closer. I can come to them for different things but Jungkook, Tae and I have grown the closest. They put a smile on my face when no one else could. 

I stopped looking at all my imperfections and stripped all of my clothes off instead. I grabbed my fuzzy robe and wrapped it around myself as I prepared my bathwater. I stuck my hand underneath the water and turned it on as hot as I could stand. I wanted to feel pain, not wanting to resort to my other means of handling things. I grabbed a bath bomb and unwrapped it so I didn't have to worry about doing it when I needed it. I then wrapped my hair up in a sloppy bun and sank myself into the bathtub. I let myself sink back but not before putting on some Michael Buble. Hopefully by the time I get out I will feel better. Hopefully drinking this whole bottle of wine will help out some.

I got out of the tub about an hour later and I can honestly say that a nice soak in the tub makes everything better.... along with over a half bottle of wine. I dried off and wrapped myself in my short robe and tied the rope around me. I admit that it was a little revealing but I really didn't care at this point.