Silent Scream

My Wake Up Call

Im still a bit dizzy so Christian and Bandit help me to my bed room. They tuck me in and i fall asleep.

I wake up to my alarm going off in my ear. ugh at least its Friday. I get up and get ready for school. I put on my long gloves and my black tank top with bones on it and my blue skinny jeans with my red plaid button up and black leather boots.

I get to the bus stop and i see Christian. I want to say hi and thank him for last night but i cant. I give him a small smile and i put in my head phones. He goes to wave but stops and looks away. I frown a bit but i watch for the bus and i stay silent. My phone goes off signaling a text.

#Christian# u ok?

#me# yea...r u mad at me?

I look over and see him walking over to me. He pulls my headphones out and hugs me. "Why? Why did you do it?" i start crying as i hug him back. 

"I-Im so-sorry." I cry. He pulls away from the hug and he kisses me. I stand speechless. What do i say. "Uhh...Christian? I-uh-I dont like you like that." Now its him thats speechless. "ill talk to you at lunch. Please dont hate me." he nods then the bus pulls up and we get on.

i go to my first period. Mrs. Jennings is going on and on with something about some dead person, Arch-duke something-or-rather, and how his death started some war. I just cant stop thinking about how to tell Christian that the reason i dont like him is because i like Bandit. Should i tell him? How would i tell bandit? I havent even told anyone yet. The bell rings breaking me from thought as i go to my second period.

--lunch--

i just got out of third period and its time to go to lunch. i see Christian waiting for me at the door. i smile and hug him. i decided on what to tell him. "hey" i say smiling.

"hey." he kisses my forehead like a big brother would do. i smile.

"so about this morning. i am so sorry for putting you off like that. i just have a lot on my mind right now." he nods understandingly. "would you by chance want to go see a movie this weekend? i can pay and everything."

"sure! and you're not paying, i am. ill pick you up at 7 tonight." i nod. 

yep. my decision was not to tell him...guess ill stay in the closet for a bit longer. i mean, how hard can it be?