Glass Pavement - - Book One

Prologue ✔

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Today is the day.

It had to be, right? The voice in my head was gone; for once, she was silent. But how could I know for sure? What made today different from yesterday? Were the clouds darker? Was the air colder? No. But still, something felt significant about today.

When I was a little girl, I used to try and imagine my life. What would I be like in five years? Ten? My mind always came up blank. I couldn't imagine myself entering adulthood and joining the masses in the real world.

Their lives were normal- pleasant even. They had goals and hope for the future. Even as a little girl, the morbidity that haunted my brightest days was always there. The thought would cross my mind that if I couldn't imagine my future, maybe, just maybe, that meant I didn't have one.

Maybe this would all come to an end before I made it that far. And why not? Lots of people died young. At least there'd be no one around to miss me.

I felt almost like I was in a different dimension as I stared out onto the street. I was in a world miles away from everyone, and yet I was just inches away from other pedestrians passing me on the sidewalk. They paid no attention to me as they walked, and I didn't expect them to.

They had places to be, I guessed.

I watched the cars speed past me and my heart beat more loudly with each one. My feet teetered forward and back on the edge of the sidewalk. This was the busiest street in town. The intersection was in constant chaos; yelling, honking, speeding. I was a small, insignificant speck amongst everything else on this crowded block.

No one would even glance twice if I just stepped off of the curb. The drivers wouldn't even stop to help me. The police would write it off as a freak accident. I would be forgotten the second my foot hit the black top of the road. I would take the dark silence that came with death over this life. What a life it was. I could be free instantaneously; all I needed to do was step off of the curb.

Wait for the right time. A truck, maybe a semi. A green light. Forty miles per hour would be enough to end everything, and they were much faster. Gone on impact.

I stood on that curb more times than I cared to remember. I'd put a lot of thought into this. Something always stopped me from stepping off, though. That voice. But she was gone; what was stopping me today?

Nothing.

I wouldn't have to wait another day for the sunshine. No more daydreams. Soon it would be real.

An eerie feeling of calm spread over my body. Finally, it would all be over. I released a breath and let my eyes fall closed. The soft breeze was enough to sway my body further forward than I had been. I felt the wind off of a car as it passed by and my lips parted in awe. My hair flowed freely around my face, brushing across my cheeks. I heard the low rumble of a car engine and the soft skid of tires moving along the pavement.

"Whoa," A figure bumped into my side nearly sending me off the edge of the sidewalk I was standing on. Arms suddenly flew around my waist, tugging me back. "Shit, I'm so sorry."

His arms were gone for only a moment when his fingers wrapped around my arm and pulled me away from the road. When I looked up, I saw chocolate brown eyes framed by thick rimmed glasses, and dark brown hair to match. His full lips were pulled into a concerned frown as he looked me over.