Silent
The feeling when you sit alone in the dark
The quiet aroma that overtakes you as you feel like your slowly going to die alone
Voices that echo throughout the night, screaming at you simply because your a waisted ray of light
Tears that stream down my cheeks, knowing all those voices are right. It would be better just to end it this night.
Silence is all that feels the air. The cold bitter feeling of knowing someones there.
You can't help think, what if i weren't here.
Aware of all stares, but still no one cares.
As i sit in my room all alone the darkness clouding my sight, all i can ask for tonight is to finally be alright.
-Ruby.JC
Purpose.
Its a seven letter word with more meaning than words can form.
The reason of why you are here and why you perform. If your like me, you have not found your purpose yet.
At different times my mind is facing so many different wars.
One side is trying to convince me to stay alive the other is wanting me to die.
Its hard to live in a world where people think you have lost your mind simply because they can not see inside.
Death is pulling me like im a rope attached to a boat in a storm. I get slapped and tossed around like i am nothing.
That voice that I am always scared to think about washing away all thoughts except not having a purpose at all.
The other side of the war is so small its almost as if there are two wolves and one rabbit. Im the rabbit i am out numbered and it is hard to make it out alive.
But thats what one side wants.
It sound like my ears have been turned off by a switch. Everything telling me how worthless i am is finally an abyss.
But im left there crying. Why am I crying?! Stop being pathetic! Wipe your eyes and stand up because all you is look like is pathetic. Not worth it. Its all just a thin surface.
When will i find my purpose!
-Ruby.JC
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My One and Only (joshler fanfiction)
ФанфикJoshler fiction in school tyler changes school cause hes bullued and josh the jock becomes friends with the shy boy or a little more than friends maybe then a few months later tyler gets sick and doesn't know how much longer he'll live.
