'Cathartic City's' Thought

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Some thoughts:

This marks the end of the main text (He Yujin's story).

Towards the end, when He Yujin said, 'Gao Fei, I really liked what you said to me that morning.' Some words, if they were never vocalised, would never become true. – The words Gao Fei had never vocalised were 'I love you'. On the day of their wedding, he vowed that he would never say them to He Yujin.

Before He Yujin died, she said that she liked the way Gao Fei refused to say these words even at the very end, because if Gao Fei had never said them, they will never become true. Only if Gao Fei did not love her would he be able to move on after her death...

Only in the last moments of her life did He Yujin finally understand how to let go. From her extreme, obsessive love to, at last, truly wishing for Gao Fei's life to return to the way it would have been if she had never barged into his life... In the end, she understood what it meant to love a person, and hoped for him to continue living his life in happiness even if she would never be a part of his life ever again. The unsaid last words of Tsangyang Gyatso's poem was her last wish – to die at the summit of the mountains, the closest place there was to the skies, so she could ascend to the Heavens, not for an afterlife, but to watch over Gao Fei for a lifetime of happiness when his life finally returned to the way it had been after she died.

But it's too late. The marks she left in Gao Fei's life can no longer be erased... and this, we will see in the extra stories, Gao Fei's arc, which was also my favourite part of the book.

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