Updates and Art Season 3- Chronicles of an Alt

Self Motivation and Me: New Years Shit

The Bad Stuff First:

I am NOT a very motivated person, there's no surprise there. I haven't updated any chapters of my books because ahahaha, I've been on my alt. All break. Talking to my lovely darling (hurl I'm gushy fight me ok?-) and roleplaying (whoops) with my bby Suki and my bby Akira And Nori sometimes—

But It makes me happy. Why the fuck does my happiness matter?? Well, I will admit, before I had the account I'd have these little splurges of intense sadness and I know what was causing it. I've tried cutting those people from my life but I don't have the balls to say to them, stop talking to me. I know that would hurt them more then me and I can't do it to them.

I got so close to it the other day and I almost said it, but they guilt tripped me away from it and I felt just... wrong doing it. It's hard. Like, stupidly hard.

So we are right back where we started. Why does my happiness matter. If I'm not happy, I don't
-write
-draw
-function
And I can't
-help people's problems
-comfort others properly

I never tell people my true feelings because I can be extremely harsh, and I only really show them to two people, Saammantthhaaa and the next ones obvious if you know who you are- but I'm bad, like, r e a l l y bad.

I'm trying to be a better person this year. I'm trying to be more motivated, I'm trying to improve my very low self esteem and I'm trying to be a good person.

Another thing. My dreams can cause a huge effect on me. If I have a dream with a person who's negative on my life and they come around me, I'll get panicked or paranoid (although I am already that 90% of this time)

That's also relevant because if I get home and am in a shit mood I can't write!!-

Now. Onto, the good shit

Wow ok for starters, MY FUCKING BOOK
LIKE
DAMN
I'm genuinely surprised it has the amount of reads it has. Maybe it's because it's one of the first V3 character books on the site that doesn't have shitty writing and actually has a plot!!!! I mean my writing is pretty bad but some of the people on here
Oh boy

(CENSORED) soBbed loUd cudDlIng iNto OmA's cHes. "I lOv yOu ouMy"

Ok maybe half of that was me being still salty over Ouma's wife-

Back to our programming-
But yeah, I'm thankful to have patient readers who aren't on my ass shouting, UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE- that would annoy me tbh- I'm fine with people asking about the status of the book though!!

Another great thing about this year-
I'm not single anymore so that's lit. Whoops I fell in love with a dork and not some bad boy archetype because fuck that shit(tm). She's v v v v v v v v v v v great and I love her a lot and she's a beauty and oOf- she's helped a l o t with my moods, she makes me very very happy and that's really nice. I need her- a lot- and I don't tell her enough that I love her sooooooo I love youuuuuu dooooorkkkk cause I knoooow you're gonna read this later-

So yeah
Blessed year
Best year
Fuck 2016 that year sucked dick
2017 I love you man
2018???? Better not fuck with me or I'll kick you

To those of you wondering about my alt, I'm ok with you knowing now as long as y'all don't spam my ass with DM's-

Another thing about my alt is I post art a lot more and it's u s u a l l y my OC's-
I'm impressed that some of you found my alt already (lmao)

My alt is

Http-Patissier

Warning, if you top my board Http-Police-Officer will top you- she like
O w n s my board (:,> I love you sweetie)

Yeah bye now I gotta skedaddle over there so I don't get spammed with replies ffs