CANCER: A MOTHERS JOURNEY

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My name is Candace Rhodes this is my story. It all started in may of 2016 I had a mole on my shoulder it just kept changing and growing. We went from Dr to Dr all of which kept saying it was harmless. I kinda felt deep down that they were wrong.At night I would have the worst night sweats felt tired all the time . I just didn't feel well. It was getting harder and harder to push through my day. Finally we met a dr who was very concerned. She sent me for an emergency PETSCAN as well as to a dermatologist. The dermatologist took it off it left me with 13 stitches in my left shoulder. And me and my husband waited and waited. Finally the phone rang one rainy Monday morning. Then came the dreaded word Melanoma stage 4 surgery chemotherapy. All those words ran through my mind is this realluy happening. It was like I was n shock I just couldn't deal with the diagnosis. I had already been through so much . I watched my dad shoot and kill himself. Those images have never left my mind i see them every time I close my eyes. It sthe worse kind of memory anyone could have. And now this Cancer how can I possibly take on anything else. The fear of dying never crossed my mind in the beginning. I felt like I was strong enough to fight this. So surgeries were scheduled meetings with chemotherapy nurses came and went. a port was inserted into to my right chest wall due to my veins being messed up. Then it was on to the dreaded chemotherapy that first day of chemotherapy I don't remember very well its a blur. Probably due to the high fever and body aches that came with the chemo. I mustered up the strength to go back everyday 5 days a week for a whole month. I wanted to give up I was tired I was in Pain everyday I wanted to just give up .