How To Love Again

Chapter One: Remember me?

Eunha's POV
I am walking in our school halls. It is December so snow started falling early this morning.

"Bunnie-ah!" Somebody shouted behind me. Ugh! I told them not to call me by that name.

"Mircel! I told you don't call me by that name! First you are not a korean, se-"

"I know Bunnie-ah! But I just want to pra-" Did she listen to me?! I told her not to call me by that name.

"Mircel, I am warning you! I told you not to call me name or else I call you 'white rabbit' due to your two, big front tooth." I warned her and gave her a death glare.

"Okay fine, 'Eunha... Just listen to me, okay?" I nodded to her. I know that this is something useless again!

"Your ex is back!" Is this a joke? My ex? Who is this ex again? Ah right! Matthew!

"Then?" I rolled my eyes. I moved on. Past is past, look forward to the future.

"He is looking for you Eunha!" Mircel warned too late. I can see him in Mircel's background.

"Eunha...." oh God? How can I distract him? I thought something to distract him. None at all!

I quickly ran forward to him and just..... snobbed him!

That's all I can do!

"Eunha! Just let me explain to you!" He shouted. I stopped and took a glance at him. He changed! But all that trouble he made me won't change at all. I will never forgive him

"Please Eunha.... Listen!" He shouted.

"We are done Matthew! That's all! I saw what I can see in my own naked eye. You and that woman! Make a new scandal in front of our own house! I saw you! That was the truth! You can't change the past Matthew! It is all done both within us! I would never forgive you! Never!" I told him with all my heart. I can't look at his face again.

I can see pain in his face. The wall I made in my heart will be broken due to his pain.

It was his fault and that woman with him! I should never trust boys again! They are all douchebags!

I sat down on the floor and thinking what happen. I remember the day I hated him.

FLASHBACK...
I am walking home that night. He told me to meet me at the front of our house. He said he has a surprise.

I am too excited!

When I was in front of our house, I saw him, with a girl kissing him in the lips. He saw me, I was like struck by a lightning and froze there.

"I can explain Eunha!" He said.
"I saw everything Matthew! You can't change it!" I ran and ran until I found myself in the water fountain, crying.

I can't believe my eyes! I went to the bridge and stand there. I want to die! I was about to jump when someone held my hand.

"E-eunha, y-you can't do this!" A guy said and let me sat.

"Who are you? How did you know my name?" I asked curiously.

"Are you my guardian angel? Did you come to rescue me?" I asked again.

"Uhhhhh.... No.. but I am Christian, your classmate." Then that's where I started a new relationship.

I sat there, crying all over again. After minutes of crying, I stood up and decided to our room.

AFTER I came inside my room, stares of both confusions and disgust welcomed me.

'She don't have a heart at all! What a freak!'

'I heard too, she won't forgive his ex again.'

'She maybe pretty but full of stupidness! She don't have a heart at all! What a b*tch!'

I sat down and ignores the guy who is beside me. How could they? They don't know what happened! You can't judge a book with its cover when you didn't read the story at all.

"Good day class! I know we have a group of students transferred in our class, let's meet them. Please stand mister Mendes." M-mister mendes? Don' tell me it is Ca-

"Good morning everyone! I am Carl Luis Mendes and the rapper of black ace. You can call me 'swag or suga', since they say I look like Suga in BTS." UGH! Thank you coincidence for putting this guys on Earth.

"Mister Erichson?" I looked at the direction where the teacher is looking. The guy who stole my heart then just.... broke it.

"Before saying anything else, I want to say sorry to miss-"
"Don't say anything else!" Fiona shouted.

"Miss Abucejo, don't be rude!" The teacher warned.

"No miss,  you are not going to say anything more! You don't know the history of the one he's talking about, so beat it miss! You can't judge anyone without knowing his own story!" Mircel shouted. I know they just want to protect me from my past. But they have done enough. They have done everything just to protect me from my dark past.

But I won't let them do that. I need to stand up for myself.

"No. Please continue. Don't mind them." I said bluntly. In my peripheral vision, I could see Fiona and Mircel staring at me in pure confusion.

I just stared at them too.

"My name is Matthew Danielle Ramirez and I like dancing. At my school, I got an award called 'the best in dancing' and won a great gold trophy. Thank you." I looked at him. He stared at me blankly then he smiled back, I know that smile was only fake cause.....

Nevermind....

"Okay next is bla... bla... bla..." I can't listen to them anymore. I will never forget what they've done to me. All my suffering and problems led to confusion, lack of confidence and depression. After that happened, I saw darkness and sadness. The innocent and loving inside of me became dark and ambition. I always see myself as a failure, useless and stupid.