"I'm Scared" Kim Taehyung ff

Chapter 3

  "April...." I said and she looked at the screen. 
I was lost for words, we just looked at each other for another 2 minutes before she finally broke the silence, "can you please read that again?"

"Yes... it says 'The winner is Isabella Jane Black' "

 She looked at me "But... that's... you?" I nodded, "You won? We won? WE REALLY WON?! WHAT?! I THINK I WILL PASS OUT!" She jumped up from the bed and ran around my room while screaming 'we won' over and over.

I still hadn't processed it, we really won? A thousand thoughts went through my brain all at once, what if they don't like us? what if they think I'm ugly? am I fat? what about my face? what if they don't like my personality? 

I watched as April sat down on the bed, her face turned white and she stared into the air, she looked at me and mumbled, "What if they don't like me?"

I nodded and looked down at my hands "I know, I'm thinking the exact same thing. But don't worry, it will be okay" I was mostly telling that to myself.

I was on the brim of getting another panic attack, I was so happy, but at the same time, I was Petrified.

April noticed my shaking hands and tried to comfort me "it's going to be so fun! everything will be okay, don't you think so?"

I nodded and put on a fake smile, everything will NOT be okay, what if my anxiety gets too much? We have to be there for a whole month, and what about Ella? how will I ask the contest people if she can come? will they even listen? 

My hands are shaking and I feel like I'm going to pass out, I hugged my knees and looked down, oh no... 

"Hey, Isa? Isabella? are you okay?" April asked while coming closer to me.

I started sobbing and my whole body was shaking at this point, she hugged me and gently patted my back while whispering calming things.

"I- I'm sorry, I can't s- stop it" I stuttered.

"It's okay, everything will be okay. Just breathe, you don't have to be sorry, it's okay to be scared" she calmingly said, and I started to breathe normally.

"thank you" I whispered. She let go of me and wiped my tears away with her thumbs.

"now. let's go downstairs to your family and tell them" she smiled and grabbed my hand to pull me off the bed.I followed her downstairs, we went into the kitchen where my family was eating lunch.

"So... Um... We kinda, you know.. won the contest" I began.

my mom nearly choked on her food, "are you serious? Did you win? how?" She asked

"I have no idea how we won, but we did" April added, my mom stood up and hugged us both.

"I'm so happy for you! When are you leaving?" She said while still hugging us.

 "I think it's on Monday, and it's Saturday now... So, in two days?" it took me a moment to process what April just said, I didn't even read that part where it said when we had to leave. "Are you sure? I don't even know what to pack!" I walked around in the kitchen while fanning my face with my hand, "what about Ella?" my dad asked. "Well... I have a plan" I stated, "Is it a good one?" April asked, "I have a plan."

To be honest? I do not have a good plan, I don't even know if you can call it a plan. My so-called 'plan' is to just ask if she can come too.

We are currently in my bedroom, and we have been for the last 30 minutes, we're trying to write something that makes sense to the contest people. So far we have: 'Hello my name is Isabella Jane Black, I won the Trip to Seoul with BTS contest, on your website and in the mail you sent me it says that I can bring a friend, would it be possible for me to bring two friends?' 
"Do you think it will work?" April asked concerned while looking at the computer screen.
"I don't know... But it's worth a try. Should I sent it as it is or write more?" I read the mail again to make sure I didn't miss spell something. 
"I think you should just send it and see what happens"  She replied, I pressed the send button and crossed my fingers, I really hope this works...  

(A/N)
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